well done, addmiting theres a problem is half way to recovery.
i had pre and post depression with ds1, i went through tthe basic care of what i HAD to do, it wasnt because i wanted to sit their cuddling him, but i knew i had to do it so did. fake it till you make it was my motto for almost a year.
have you spoke to your gp? mine arranged group theorpy, there was about 10 other woman there, and we talked, sometimes we did art while talking, the other things i found usefull was, espp first thing in the morning, was to blast some music and dance around to it while feeding lo, it helped me and helped lo one.
another was to come up with a key word, some simple.. like apple or blue which you could say to your other half or friend just to let them know your feeling esspially down, and its not thier fault, allow them to know when you need that extra bit of tlc kind of thing, also means you dont have to explain your self.
there is loads of h elp out there, people are supportive, you may come along few dick heads but your find alot of people on hear to listen and hand hold if nothing else. xx