to ask for positive pnd outcome stories?

[CailinDana]

Have finally admitted i have pnd. I've had depression before so i know i have a slow road to recovery ahead. I would so appreciate anyone else's stories of how they overcame pnd. I need some reassurance at the moment.

Feeling like hell today, i'm not sure why. Possibly tiredness.

Can you get dh to take the dc out for a bit while you rest? Dd is at swimming w dh so I'm in bed while ds naps.

I have some work to do today so trying to squeeze that in. I prefer not to go to bed during the day as it seems to really lower my mood. I think now that i'm on a higher dose of ads the side effects are kicking in. Plus i feel homesick and lonely for my mother even though i know she wouldn't understand me at all.

What ad's are you on? I did a pg test this am as I've felt so odd. Thankfully it was neg but I'm thinking it must be side effects.hugs.

I'm on imipramine kitty. I feel much more anxious and wound up today than i have in the past week.

Hi Cailin. Just offering a hand to hold as my brain has deserted me today. Thinking of you.
Ps- I really relate to wanting your mum at a time like this: I craved my mum, even though I knew she'd be rubbish if I had asked her for help. I realised I wanted mothering, not my mum, iykwim. Try to surround yourself w kindness and support. Xx

Feeling horrendous today. Dd barely slept last night - i'm guessing 4 month sleep regression - yay!

here's hoping DH can help w bedtime and bathtime and that a nice dinner and early bed help you feel better (even if that's only to get a few hours in before DD wakes up). How's she doing now on taking the bottle? If she's still taking some, cd DH maybe give her a feed so you get a bit more sleep tonight?

She was really unsettled all day, wouldn't take the bottle and is now gone to bed an hour earlier than usual. I don't think there's much point in dh trying to feed her. I'll just have to go to bed at 8 and hope she sleeps for more than an hour at a time unlike last night.

hope today's been better Cailin.

Not really chilled. The site where i had the biopsy started oozing again so i went to the gp who gave me more antibiotics. I rang the breast clinic who informed me that it's "normal" for the site to leak milk and that it won't heal until i stop bfing. I was incredulous. I was not told that at the time. Basically she was saying i would have an open, oozing wound that would potentially get infected again and again for months. Why THE BLOODY FUCK did they not tell me this before they did the fucking biopsy??!! The biopsy was far from essential and i would have refused it if i had known what could happen. And of course dd won't take a bottle so it's not as if i can stop bfing. I am so incredibly pissed off.

What utter bastards not to have told you that! That's outrageous!

Last week DD was talking 3-4oz, wasn't she? Any luck getting her to up that? Even from DH, if she won't take a bottle from you?

She'll still only take about 3oz and then cry for boob.

Thats awful Cailin. Like you say you wouldnt have had it if you had known. Hope today is better for you.

Hey Cailin, just checking in to say hi. How are things?

I'm not too bad chilled thanks. Managed to get dd to nap for a short while in her cot today and yesterday so i'm happy about that. Still annoyed about the breast thing and worried that all they'll do tomorrow is tell me to stop bfing which i would gladly do if dd would take a blooming bottle! God i can't wait till dd is a big hardy toddler like ds. How are you?

I saw your other thread about the whole biopsy thing. I hope you kick up a proper stink tomorrow- that's really outrageous and can't be helping you or your PND. Tossers! I promise, once you start to feel better, the time will fly by and she will be an active little toddler soon. I can't believe my baby is now 20 months and storming around the house and talking (newest thing is "pick-ee err" for spikey hair: he doesn't have much but what he does have is a natural Mohican!)

Been feeling quite anxious over the last few days. Told PIL on Sunday about DC3. They were meh fine about it all. MIL has clearly told me in the past not to have any more as I 'can't cope' w my DC. Hmm, thanks. DH told them and also told them I was worried about their reactions. Arms length for the next 12 months (or forever maybe). DH is having words with them on Saturday (not least because they let themselves into my house, ninja-like, with no warning, twice this week. Not impressed.). But I had a bit nap today and feel much brighter.

Had 2nd early scan today and it finally feels real that I'm pg! So pleased. EDD is now 24 Jan and I'm nearly 9 weeks pg! Telling my (useless) family on Saturday, as I'm off home for a funeral. Am getting lots of support this time- seeing GP every 4 weeks, going to speak to MW about support and also got my counsellor on speed dial (nothing scheduled but thinking I might try to see her monthly).

How exciting about the scan! Lovely. I think if anything shows you can cope it's the fact that you've battled through pnd twice to raise two lovely children and you're willing to battle again if you have to. If that's not coping what is??

The idiots at the clinic better watch out tomorrow.

Congrats on the scan,apparently. Good idea re counsellor. And ditto what Cailin said. Can't believe your inlaws have let themselves in!!!

Good luck tomorrow Cailin

I'm glad other people are outraged that they let themselves in too- I'm so annoyed! we're about to do some work on the house and I think we're about to take the keys back permanently, with that as a pretext. Though I'm kind of minded to say stuff a pretext and tell them exactly what I think!

Will be thinking of you tomorrow Cailin.

Good luck today Cailin.

Well the news isn't great. Consultant said i'm stuck with a leaking hole in my breast until i stop bfing. The only thing i can do is dress the wound and be fastidious about keeping it clean. That means cleaning and dressing it 4-5 times a day. Which will be easy as i have nothing else to do.

On a minorly positive side he said sorry.

sorry?!!! that's the bloody least he should have said! Did he give any reason for not warning you of this BEFORE the op? Tosser!

I know you were keen to get DD to take more from a bottle anyhow. Will you continue to try to get her to do so and see how things go (both w breast healing and dd taking to the bottle)? God help you - this is so unfair, and not what you need at the best of times.

We're still trying our best to get dd on a bottle but no luck so far.

Hey Cailin. Just a little wave from Yorkshire. Been a bit hectic the last few days w travelling home for funeral etc. am utterly pooped and kind of brainless now- suspect I shd have passed on the funeral. Thinking of you.