Urgent need of a hand hold / unMN hug

[MumofSpud]

I know there may be more specific sites to put this thread but I can't bring myself to go there
DH is in hospital with Leukaemia- and for the past few weeks has had a chest infection
Now he has 2 chest infections
I have been visiting x2 a day but not since Thursday as I got Covid (for the first time)
The Macmillan nurse has just rung asking me to do a test as the Dr wants to have an conversation' and it might be easier if I am there
Of course I am still testing positive
I tried to get details out of her but all she would say is that it is a serious conversation
Dr is due to ring me soon
I feel sick with nerves and so guilty that I am not there
He is 49
I really need a hand hold

I am so very sorry to see your news. Thinking of you and sending love x

I’m so so sorry @MumofSpud sending you all my deepest condolences 😞x

I'm so so sorry 😔

Oh @MumofSpud i am so so sorry. Thinking you you and your family xx

@MumofSpud there are no words. Sending you strength and love to you and your son.

Heartbroken for you and so deeply sorry. Sending you whatever you need to get through this awful time xxx

I am so so sorry for your loss OP

So sorry to read this. How awful for you all. Take care of yourself xx

Oh darling.

I am so very sorry for your loss. Sending hugs and strength 💐

I’m so sorry for your loss

So very sorry for your loss OP. Words are inadequate xx

I am so so sorry. I’m glad you were with him at the end.

Oh golly.there is just nothing we can say right now to ease this.but I hope you know every single one of us is holding you tight today.
The moment you need an ear you just come on here ok. Tell us anything,think anything, be quiet be loud be ranting be telling us all about him.whatever you need to say.or nothing at all.
you’ve literally got 24 pages of people ready to be here if that what you need.
take lots of care.

Oh OP i'm so so sorry 😢💐

I’m so sorry. Condolences to you & your family; such a heartbreaking time xx

@MumofSpud

I am so sorry for your loss. Death is shit. That's all anyone can say at this time.

When I read your message about the lung infection and the later message about what the MacMillan nurse said, I feared the worse for you because it was almost word for word what happened to my mother recently. Although like your husband, it seemed like there would be weeks or months in relation to the underlying condition, a lung infection proved fatal. It's a horrible combination of an underlying knowledge that your loved once is seriously ill but the hope you will have bit more time together with the horrific shock of a death which in fact was sudden even though it doesn' appear like it to others.

What I would say is that I would really really recommend this book
Coping with Grief by Mal & Diane McKissock

and get it as soon as you can because it deals with immediate shock. It's easily digestible even when in an intense grief state and I found it such a comfort to me in the week after my mother's death.

harpercollins.co.uk/products/coping-with-grief-d-mckissock?variant=39530191781966

I'm still in deep grief and cry at the drop of a hat so you have all my love and empathy. I am glad you managed to be with your husband and wish you all support and love as you get through a day at a time.

Please accept a stranger's deepest condolences, MumofSpud. 😥

What a terrible shock. So very sorry OP, thinking of you and your family x

Op, what a tragic post to read, I’m so sorry- your husband being so young. I hope you find some comfort that he went peacefully with you by his side. It’s almost as if he was so brave and did it on his own terms. Thinking of you all. Xxxx

My thoughts are with you x

I'm so very sorry to hear your news

My heart is breaking for you all dear. Mum of spud.

So very sorry. Sending prayers for you all.

Utterly speechless....I am so so sorry xxx