When I was 18 weeks pregnant I started to bleed heavily. I was taken to hospital and scanned and told that I was losing the baby. Because the bleeding was so heavy I was kept overnight and prepared for what would happen. I was devastated and distraught.
I had a private room but couldn't sleep because of the cramps and the crying of newborn babies throughout the ward next door, it was incredibly difficult to listen to.
At some point I got up to use the toilet. I looked at the new mums on the ward with their babies. As I walked up the corridor to the toilet a woman was being wheeled in a chair holding her newborn, she had just given birth and the midwife took her to a private room. I was stunned, in the dim light the woman appeared to look just like me, it was like seeing myself, same hair, build, facial features, it was strange and I felt like I was seeing myself! The midwife with her noticed me and checked I was ok, she said I seemed dazed and put her arm around me. I went toilet and back to my room. I would estimate I was out of the room ten minutes, fifteen at most.
Seeing the woman and her baby made me feel a sense of strength, I suddenly flipped and decided that I would be strong and return and have my baby, I felt amazingly positive.
When I got back to my room a different midwife was waiting to do my observations and asked where I had been. She said she had been looking for me for the last three quarters of an hour and was worried I had collapsed somewhere. There was no way I had been gone that long... I asked the time and she said it was around 2am. I told her I felt strong and positive and she was kind but seemed bemused.
Over the next few hours the bleeding ceased, they never found the cause and the pregnancy continued with intermittent bleeding.
Eventually I was induced early because of the complications. I was back on the same ward and went down to the labour room and gave birth to a healthy baby. After a midwife came to take me up to the ward, not only was it the same midwife I had seen wheeling the woman up months before, but she had moved me to a private room, the same room the woman I had seen taken to. As we went up I checked the time, 2am!
Could be lots of coincidences but I felt like I saw myself in the future that night and something was trying to tell me it would be ok. Either way, it gave me strength and I am grateful for it and my baby.