I went to the dr this morning as I've been so sore down there for the last week since I had my smear test, thought I was just sore and had severe thrush. Had enough of it so went to dr today. She thinks its herpes and is sending me to a clinic for swabs tomorrow to confirm. I'm devastated been with one partner for 13 years and only had one more partner which I used protection for. Me or DP have never had a breakout or a coldsore, when the dr told me herpes I just started crying and I'm actually in shock. I keep bursting out randomly crying and haven't eaten since I just feel sick. I'm well aware it can lay dormant for years but I'm baffled as to where this has come from, partner has also only been with 2 other people which he used protection with. I'm just sad. And Worried. I'm pretty sure it is as the more I've read the more signs and symptoms I've got. Has anyone been in this position? I know to some people its 'just a virus' and is common but in a way I feel dirty?! I did get sexually abused at 14 and was forced to give oral sex with no protection so thats all been triggered again, I'm just heartbroken. How the fuck do I tell my partner when he gets in. I'm petrified hes going to think I've been elsewhere or I'm dirty or judge me. And I'm scared of future flare ups and how the hell I'm going to live a normal healthy life. I've been through so much and this is just the icing on the cake.