I've had so much amazing support and advice on thread 1:
www.mumsnet.com/talk/relationships/4447267-Utterly-utterly-heartbroken?page=10&reply=116823741
My first and very significant relationship, following the end of a long traumatic marriage, ended in January leaving me devastated. A lot of trauma plus single parent to two teens with disabilities/asd plus severe chronic pain folowing back injury 2 years ago mean my resilience is very small.
Seems the end of this first relationship post unhappy marriage has also been v difficult for many others. As is the end of others' relationships.
So this thread is here for me as I try to make progress, and for anyone else struggling who'd like to join.
Lots of excellent advice on first thread too.
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