A few weeks ago my partner and I went on a mini break We have a very volatile relationship where is can be emotionally abusive. He has been so lovely to me since Xmas but whilst we were there we rowed and he said he didn't love me, told me I was a silly little girl, refused to speak to me when o was trying to sort it out and asked for his key back (I'd told him of he asked for it back again it would be the last time). O did something really silly and I left. Tooly bag and went to find a new hotel. I called him to go back but he didn't answer. O found a hotel and then got really drunk and ended up going back to a blokes flat. Here I don't remember much other than I left there screaming; I ran partially clothed, no shoes and ran and ran. He did something to me that made me run. I don't know what. I ran around this town o didn't know with no much one until someone stopped and helped me and took me back to my hotel. I called my partner during this time over 40 times and left voicemails screamimg and asking for help. He answered none of them. The next morning he called and asked if I was still in the town and he'd give me a lift back. I told him o thought I'd been sexually assaulted. He replied I don't believe you, you went there and slept with someone else. He ended it. O don't know what happened to me, I literally remember nothing than going to that flat and leaving screamimg with no shoes on and no bottoms. My partner doesn't believe me as he said my jeans are too difficult to get off and he can't do it. He said hell consider taking me back, if I show what happened, I have to show him what I can remember physically and o have to wear the same top, underwear, jeans, everything. I said I can't face doing that. So he's blocked me, dropped all my belongings on my doorstep and that's it. It's over. I am just devastated I did this to him