and I'm lost.
We've been together almost 16 years, he's the only man I've ever loved and I love him so much.
We have 3 children and I'm 3 months pregnant with a baby he wanted. The stress this poor baby has been through recently 
what with my dad having a heart attack just 3 weeks ago too.
I keep trying to hate him, I realise he's given up without trying as his falling out of love with me coincides with him joining a dating site and meeting someone else on it.
My eldest (14) knows and it's destroyed her, I am absolutely dreading us telling my other 2, especially my 10 year old son as he's so sensitive.
I can't help but think of all the little things that I'll never share with him again because he really was my best friend.
Please if anyone recognises me from any of this, could you keep the pregnancy bit quiet, I have had an early scan due to a history of miscarriages but my next one isn't until I guess tomorrow now and I've only told 2 other people apart from H.