Early pregnant, partner doesn't want it

[LeAmEl19]

I have only just found this part of mumsnet! I am about 5 weeks pregnant, my partner doesn't want it at all. Openly said I'd be selfish to keep it and that there would be feelings of animosity toward me 😥
However I have started bonding with this baby. I had a termination before in 2015 and while I'm "okay" now, I'd love to go back and change my mind.
I am booked in to speak with somebody from the nhs about a termination, but I already know I can't do it.
But then I run the risk of my partner leaving, not bonding? Not coping? Resenting me?
I'm so confused

I was going to come on here to tell you not to be pressured into an abortion - I terminated a few months ago after pressure from my husband and it has been very traumatic.

BUT...I completely agree with MsHopey where she says:

'I can't see how 4 young children, 2 will basically still be babies, squeezed into a 2 bedroom house with no parent working and the last 2 children being after the benefits cap, no sleep and no help with childcare will be easy.'

And to add to that a father who doesn't want the child (and didn't want the one before).

I actually don't think you should think just of yourself. You need to think of your whole family and what is best for your existing children.