D`y ever ever wonder what you would do if you won the lottery?

[triplets]

I know what I would do.

1. Buy a 5 bedroom house so we all get our own room, big garden so James could have a dog.

1. Get private medical insurance so we never again have to await scans and results.

1. Buy Shabs a villa in Faliraki.

1. Throw a big party for all my lovely lovely mad mums on here.

1. Treat myself to highlights.

1. Buy bags and bags of M&S choccy nuts!

Trips!!!!!! I can't accept that!!!!! Its precious! Its glorious and I love it to bits.....but really, I will borrow it for a wee while, and I will return it. Thank you! It has cheered me up to the sky today xxxxxx.

Shabs, did I hear right?

Derkster bought you new clothes?
Is he after a bit of slap and tickle?
What a lovely thing for him to do!!!! Does that mean you are now kitted out all gorgeous for the gorgeous one? Or do you have bits still to get.

FWIW, we go on holiday in about 5 weeks and I am slightly panicking because amongst moving house, renting this one, DTs birthday shopping, sports day, ill people, a million concerts at DD1's school etc etc, I haven't given the hoiday requirements one single thought. And its bad. The DTs fit nothing of last years clothes. Well, maybe the hats.......

For many, many years (since Gareth died in 1982) I have been obese. I am still very overweight but about 7 stone lighter (it has taken 10 years to shift it). DH's way of 'helping' is to keep commenting about the way I look. I decided that I did not deserve new clothes because I was so fat. It sounds pathetic now but that was how I felt. I always have everyones cast offs and never new stuff.

I would like some new shoes (with wedges!!) but if I cant have them then so be it!

As for being ready for the gorgeous one well....a girl can dream xx

Hey ladies. GCSEs nearly done so should get some PC time by 2022!

Just please explain. You feel fat.........and you don't deserve new clothes? I don't see the connection. You feel fat, ok I accept that feeling because I get that feeling too. But not to deserve new clothes??????? My god woman, you MORE than deserve it!!!

That is a direct relationship to self-esteem. If you don't mind me saying this - what I read is that you blame yourself for losing Gareth and Matt and this is part of the way of punishing yourself.

You can't be blamed. You didn't make it happen.

Now, talk to me about wedges

never thought of it like that Frumpster. If I dont look in the mirror I think I am ok....BUT...I really dont care what other people think of me, if they dont like what they see then sod 'em!!

BUT I feel very enormous and very old. In fact I feel very weird just right now!

All will be well....all will be well. If you opened my wardrobe you would never guess an overweight womans clothes were in there! I love deep pink, burnt orange, and any shade of green. Hardly any black in there.

I need wedge shoes that are comfy and can cope with walking up the hill to the Venezia!! Incidentally when you go up the hill in a taxi your ears pop

I think Im homesick for my Greek family...I can smell the sunshine if you know what I mean. We walk down the hill every night to Bar Street (nowhere near as bad as it is made out to be) we call in our favourite bars and then walk along the beach....ahhhhhhhh everything is crossed for a small lotto win tonight

...and, yes, you are right I do feel it is all my fault...dont think that will ever change.

This is how my soul feels tonight

lighten up Shabbs you miserable owd biddie

OMG! I haven't been on here for a bit because I have a lot of "stuff" going on in my head at the mo and I've just read in two different posts part of how I'm feeling .

As you can see I'm not sleeping properly either .

Good morning girls. Snorris - you ok darling? xx

Morning all!
How nmany sleeps now Shabs?

Fustilarian - congratulations! I tried to CAT you but your settings don't let you receive a message. I have an american Maximom sling for £40 if you would like. Ingood nick and I can send you pictures if you are interested. This is a link to a picture of mine

FG I have sent it to you as I want you to have it for keeps, you must NOT send it back! I have many others in my loft which need sorting! Please enjoy...........do you need an old Dansette? Glad it arrived, I am getting worried about my local PO! Morning all, grey and cloudy again, H on chemo but looking good, they told him his bloods had really come up alot, so they were bery pleased with him! One more chemo to go

THIRTY FOUR SLEEPS

Fantastic news about H Trips - well done to all of you

Teasleep - Im having to 'waft' my face now with a rolled up copy of the News of the World.....OMG Nikos, builders boots and a G&T what more could a owd girl ask for .......

Trips, that's lovely news .

I am now stuck with the image of Nikos (not that I know what he actually looks like) wearing nothing but builders boots . Well that's certainly cheered me up!!!

I don't want to say too much here as my sister is also a Mnetter and it's easier to keep things from those close to you. I am just struggling with my life in general at the moment, I can email/FB if you want to know more.

Shabs, I can definitely identify with the clothes 'thing'. I have lost 2 stone since the end of Feb by going to Slimming World but I am still size 18/20 (ample bobos ). I have binned a lot of my old clothes that are now too big but when I go shopping I hate the way a lot of things look on me . Where's Gok when you need him? . Of course the more expensive stuff looks better, I have champagne tastes but a beer budget!!

Oooohhh Snorris!!! About 6ft 5in, size 15's feet very dark hair - eyes like puddles of chocolate - 26 years old - half Greek, half Albanian......

PS just changed my profile pic on FB - Nikos and our Tom!!!

That has definitely cheered me up . Ooh, I've come over all unneccessary . I think need to book myself a holiday!!! .

ROFL

Hiya Rubester xx