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Thank you for the thread bill
I have spent the entire day snoozing on the sofa! I can't believe the time, I've done a literal 1200 steps and that's been mainly driving home and then going to the toilet 17million times!
Leanne and Lola big hugs all round, I can't even imagine the fear of the 2ww 
I'm starting to consider more thoroughly wether I'm going to be able to work or not during the 2ww today - other teachers what did you do? Are you planning to do? have you done in previous rounds (if other teachers have done previous rounds)?
Yay for official bfps - I don't think I could tell my clinic early! Now I know the nurses better I'm trying to appear stronger (not consciously but I definitely hid my tears last time I cried there so they couldn't see and I don't want to tell them about my panic - which I know isn't healthy - but there we go!) So I wouldn't want to tell them about a bfps, but I think I'm going to be a daily tester!
With regards to 'blame', my DH has useless sperm (not totally useless hopefully, but certainly in need of icsi) and I have amenorrhea from pco with cycles of up to 9 months (so very probably anovulatory).
2 years of DTD nearly every other day (minimum 3 times a week) lead to nothing at all, so in all likelihood were both to 'blame', but I do blame his condition more than mine... I guess because his low sperm count meant we skipped all the other steps we could have tried.
It's not a personal thing, but both of us are aware that with someone else there's a chance I could get pregnant maybe if I had a stress free existence and lost about 3 stone... He is still way more chirpy than me though, and is completely happy to go down an adoption route if necessary in the future! I think in general were being not an awful team about this all (but it is round one).
Is anyone else feeling generally sore (TMI) from the amount of bodily fluid they have to keep wiping away? My face hurts from wiping tears away and the resultant snot too when I have a proper meltdown, I've got mildly loose bowels (I've been to the loo like 5 times today) so my bottom is sore, and I've been peeing about once every two hours for the past 3 weeks, plus having to wipe away excessive lube from being probed every other day, I think I might have literally rubbed out my vagina!!!