Yay I found you all! Great stuff. I absolutely love that you guys understand the rollercoaster of emotions that I feel I'm on most days. It sounds cliche but no one actually 'gets it' in real life. Let's stick together, though I'll have to start watching CBB -not an issue. I love a bit of trash TV.
@thegamblersmrs TMI but I have also been known to select specific knickers in the run up AF. Black knickers are a no, no as you can't discern and closely examine what colour any liquid is. White knickers are also a no, no as they'll stain badly if one has a gush or isn't quick enough in penguin marching to the loo, to insert the necessary knicker mattress.
I'm pootling along. Boobs a tiny bit sore, back has the odd half hour of aching and I'm napping most days but other than that, I feel normal.
I'm beginning to become more and more anxious as the days to the OTD get nearer. I feel like I'm about to go through an awful, traumatic experience. The last time there were days, straight after the BFN that I wasn't sure how I was going to cope or if I could carry on functioning at work. Knowing I could feel like that again ratchets up my anxiety in itself.
I am most definitely the problem with the infertility. According to our GP, DP has 'super sperm'. Nice of her to point the flashing finger of blame above my head 
I feel a lot of responsibility to DP to be able to give him a child but also to our parents in giving them their first grand-child.
Thankfully I realise I am worth more than my uterus but I still feel rubbish that I can't give them what we all want.