ABitWrong is in trouble again

[ABitWrong]

Getting worse and worse. This morning it felt like I had things crawling up me but there was nothing there.
I have chest pains left over from panic attacks.
Also been having hot flushes and now my kidneys are aching. Is this all just stress?

no i just have to keep pretending i am okay

Yes, cereal good - give them cereal.

Do you want to talk about that now or leave it? Am happy to do either.

Are kids quietened down?

Are you on any anti d's?

Can't take ADs. I take too many.

I have put the knife down but i still feel like shit

Ok. Do you have a mental health team? Would you go and see someone tomorrow and talk about maybe some counselling or something?
Making that decision might help you now.

How are you feeling now? Chest ok or still bad?

Good that you put it down. Well done.
Where are the kids?
Can you call the Samaritans without little ears? 0845 909090.

can't do much really, no time to myself, no time anyway really

Yes to mental healt h team

ABW - hey lady Come on, good to see you talking here. I wanted to ask you for that korma recipe but obv that's not top of your list right now, understandably.

You keep talking ok? Anything, just talk

Hey sweetie, sorry have been out with DC's

Can you call them. O rmake the decision to call tomorrow?

I have to go shortly.

Remember all the people who are holding your hand.... I believe in you petal and would carry you for a bit if I could...

Please call samaritans, ABW. They'll just sit at the end of the phone while you sob if need be.

Hi ABW - i am here to.

TMW is fab and you know it ABW

do you have a crisis team phone number? I know it is very scary actually ringing people, but you sound very low.

Hugs xx

am here as well.
you can get through this. just tonight.
just try to keep talking.

it's important that you face this and don't continue to pretend you are OK. I am sorry I don't know much of your history but it sounds like you need to get proper help. You CAN get better but you need to take some actions towards it.
You said you have a mental health team - they are there for you and specifically for times of crisis. please call them.

Hey ABW, I'm here too. Have you ever called The Samaritans before? Have they been helpful?

Actually shiney, voices like yours are really helpful, the stroking and soothing is important but reason is as vital....

I wouldn't like to be in a room with 10 of myself it would be about as useful in the end as a chocolate fireguard...

DD sends her love and is thrilled you might be coming up... she sends love and hugs. (I know, she should be in bed but we have had lemonade so we are bouncing off the walls)

Thank you everybody.

I have to shift my stupidfat arse now to collect my eldest .

Mits, I am welling up.

You are all so kind.

i don't fel like going out

I will be around when you get back....and my arse is WAY bigger than yours so pleeeeuuuurrrrpp!!