I have been urgently referred to mental health team but not sure I will make it that far.

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I have eating disorder/depression/self harm problems. Also admitted to doctor that I get suicidal, but wouldn't do anything because of the children.

i don't know how long I will have to wait for help.

Mentally, I can't take much more.
Physically I can't take much more, I am making myself ill and I don't know how to stop.

Yes, she knows everything. In some ways I think she knows more about me than I do
She is a very perceptive person.

Broadband's been down for 2 days - sorry. Back online now if you need to chat.

Have you checked out the BEAT website for people with ED? (Sorry if I am repeating this) Hope things improve for you.