hey. ((((()))))
sadly, there is nothing you can do to change that, but if you believe in the afterlife and stuff, then you can speak to your nan if you choose.... she may not answer, but having seen your threads from a week or so ago, it seems your nan may have already said her goodbye to you
however, if you don't believe, tell me to bugger off!
you can try to go some way to rebuilding things with your grandad....thats not too late...and even if things don't go as you hope they will, you can rest easy knowing that you tried...
my lovely girl...you have done nothing wrong in this whole saga...you are the victim here...my guess is that your family can't handle their hurt for you, and can't understand your courage, which is why they have abandoned you for want of a better word....they are putting their own feelings over and above yours, which is wrong, but understandable....you do all you can to always protect your children...maybe they feel they have failed you sweetheart, and they do not know how to right that.
maybe i've got it all wroong, but whatever...you are still keeping on, and for that, you should be rightly proud....
you nad j make up your family now...build strenth into that relationship, and only rely on you to make you happy.... anyone else makes it better, but you will do just great......i know.
more hugs for you my girl ((((())))) xxxxx