sick of coping quietly

[copingvquietly]

im not coping today.my brain has alot going on.ive had 3 hrs sleep since yesterday and i want to scream shout and sit and cry all at the same time.im so tired but cant sleep.
im sorry if your all sick of me.ive no where else to turn to

cvq done you a post in chat. just seen this.

ill have to talk.its for settling in.
i am very tired but cant sleep.ill be awake all night again
i wish i could sleep and not wake up

have you had some fresh air

Hello sweetheart. There's loads of people here listening. Not sure I can make any useful suggestions but we're all here for you.

I wish I could say something to help, but nobody is sick of you. I feel sad reading your post, you're in so much pain..

2 nurofen and 2 paracetomol will make you sleep well just til morning. But that'd be a rest from your thoguhts. HOpe tomorrow is easier for you.

We are all here for you cvq! We are NOT sick of you. Sometimes we might not have the right words, but it doesnt mean we don't care. Sending you virtual hugs (even if it is such a netmums thing to do).

Hang on in there, you are havinga bad horrible day, your lack of sleep isn't helping, you need to get angry darling. Heaven knows im angry for you.

I think there is a bachs rescue remedy that can help with sleep. I swear by my rescue remedy. OK so that doesn't help now but make a plan to go and get some tomorrow.

im in.ive got a drink now.it might help me sleep later.
im having the worst few days ive had in a long time.its a godsend j has been an angel.

I know I don't post on your threads a lot, I don't MN hugely (on a roll tonight though ) I know your boy was in hospital recently. That sounded awful. What's been going on in the last few days?

oi - can I call you cvq?

this

i just need peace fletch

OK - no worries

If you need me i think you have my number

I am waiting up for feckless teenager to come home, so if you fancy a chat, just let me know

am on msn as well if you have that fixed

so you had the cctv fitted this evening?

Do crisis do any follow up stuff with you?

cvq - have you got a lovely fluffy thing (dressing gown, duvet, throw, pashmina thing) that you can cuddle into? I know it's bastard hot (well it is here anyway) but just cuddling something like that around you can help you feel better (sounds mad, still works) and if you can imagine that said thing is a Shield against all Shit, then it can help you to feel safe as well. (still sounds mad, still works).

you are still doing a great job, you are hanging in there and you are communicating on here to get the help and support you need - we are all here for you.

{{{{hugs}}}} - special curly ones

yes it running now.yes but i didnt answer the door.we spoke on the phone.
my cpn is here tomorrow

cvq - have sent you a message or two on MSN

Hope cpn helps. Will be thinking of you. I'm sure lots of people say that to you but we are, lots of us. You will get through this, you're doing all the right things in getting help.
xxx

i get the help then get knocked down again.all my effort gets me nowhere.everything feels so slow.why is that?

because you have a big hill to climb??

you are progressing though

I see that you are

no.slow and big like im detached.not here

are you on meds? they can do that to you.

not new ones.it doesnt feel safe tbh
why do i feel like this.it wont go away

I'm sure you're suffering from depersonalization after your panic attack - I found the only things that snapped me out of it was a little dose of diazepam which meant I had a good nights sleep. It will pass but I have had these going slowly feelings for about 48 hours. hang in there. I'm off to bed but if I can help anymore with stuff about panic attacks and anxiety let me know, I know how debilitating they are.

it feels like i could do anything and it woudlnt affect me