Can I risk being totally honest?

[naswm]

Community Mental Health Team appt tomorrow.

if I tell them everything, I have to deal with the possible consequences of that

if I dont tell them the truth, they wont take me seriously

Waited 2.5 weeks for this 'urgent' appoiontment to come through, and now it is here I don't know how to play it

advice please?

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Aw naswm. I don't hate you darling. You know I don't. I wouldn't be there for you all the time if I didn't think you were the best thing that had happened to me since the birth of my children.

That SW sounds like a rude little prick. Shame you would never have said that to him...

AWWWWWWWWWW DG {{{{{{{{{}}}}}}}}}}}}

I did tell him I felt very despondent after the meeting, and that neither of us had got anything out of it - he knew exactly what was going on. He told me he was frustrated he could do more, but until someone somewhere in the world came up with a solution there was nothing he could do (his words)

I feel so crap right now

I tell you, I may not have been clinically depressed before, but I certainly am feeling it now

Thanks everyone for your advice and concern
If anyone has any ideas, please let me know. Although why I think mn could help when no one else has been able to, I dont know, but it is worth a try I guess.

I am now biding time

Oh naswm

I am so sorry that you got a MH worker who lacked empathy - unfortunately it can happen and is mainly the result of the worker feeling helpless and not knowing what to do. Personality disorders can be difficult to treat, but there is plenty that can be done to promote more adaptive coping strategies. What sorts of therapy have you had (if any), have you ever tried CAT (cognitive analytic therapy) or DBT (dialetical behavioural therapy). DBT is pretty new in this country but is growing. How about self harm services - do they exist in your area? MIND can be very good in offering support groups, also National Self Harm Network.

evrey one certainly does not hate you.
i for one like you quite a lot, so there
hang in there. follow up on the tips in the last post, but most of all just keep breathing x

I hardly ever post here but I just wanted to let you know that if you in England every health authority has been given specific money to develop and deliver personality disorder services. You have every right to contact your PCT and where are they in your area and why aren't you getting any? I know other people who have done this successfully.

Either in Scotland or England it is no longer accepted practice to tell people with PD to go away and that there is no treatment. NICE are just developing guidelines on this so there is guidance and legislation out there. There is also a Department of Health document No Longer a Diagnosis of Exclusion which might be helpful and you can download from their website.

It is crap and difficult, but I have found that standing up and shouting and pointing out that your treatment is not acceptable has been the only thing to get me somewhere.

I hope this is helpful and you feel a bit better this evening.

thank you

pippi, I have tried most of what you suggest. I wish there was something I hadnt tried

amphi can you explain that video?

really low this evening. Trying to function as normally but struggling massively

Okay so an hour on mn hasnt lifted my spirits, and now my mask is slipping. Time to leave for the night before I start talking from the heart and getting people worried. This is such a lonely place

night all

naswm, how are you today?

a very low day

My mind is all over the place. Wouldnt dream of talking about it.

Hoping the day/week will be over soon so I can forget everything