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Didn't want to wake up

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Springtime54 · 05/04/2026 07:37

Now I have, it's the immediate panic and dread. Paralysed to do anything. The absolute struggle of getting through another day. I cant do another 40 - 50 years, I just can't.

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Springtime54 · 06/04/2026 15:53

Katiecarrot · 06/04/2026 15:50

It does sound like severe depression, why are you paying a private psychiatrists, you may be better to go NHS, they offer the ECT for treatment resistant depression, and there is a similar newer treatment called Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation, I have seen massive improvements with these - once your depression is treated you can start to focus on making the life changes you feel you need to x

The nhs discharged me after I moved house. They just sent me a letter saying my GP could manage me. I'd been under nhs mental health services for years. They didnt even phone me about it or have a conversation, I just got a letter.

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mismomary · 06/04/2026 15:54

Hi Springtime, I hope you are feeling a tiny bit lighter today. Enough to get a breath of fresh air. X

BringBackCatsEyes · 06/04/2026 17:03

Springtime54 · 06/04/2026 15:26

I just can't manage to phone anyone. I tried the text service shout but it didnt help.

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OK, I'm sorry.
I have never found the text or email services very good for me, I need someone right there in that moment.

I see you are not under the NHS MH. I wonder if it's worth asking your GP to be referred again. As well as supporting you, it may help secure your position at work with regards to sick leave.

Ukholidaysaregreat · 06/04/2026 17:23

Hi OP. Hope you have got a drink from the tap. It is dangerous not to drink for so long. Xxx

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Springtime54 · 06/04/2026 17:39

Ukholidaysaregreat · 06/04/2026 17:23

Hi OP. Hope you have got a drink from the tap. It is dangerous not to drink for so long. Xxx

Just had a drink and some painkillers as have another banging headache.

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Scottishlass9 · 07/04/2026 10:34

Morning @Springtime54How are you feeling today?

Shaveitall · 07/04/2026 20:32

How are you today @Springtime54? Did you manage to make it into work or did you take some time to rest?

Ukholidaysaregreat · 08/04/2026 07:23

Hi OP, hope you have had some more water and you are feeling better than yesterday. Xxxx

Shaveitall · 08/04/2026 20:45

Hi OP, I’m really concerned about you as you haven’t posted for a couple of days.

clover888 · 08/04/2026 21:55

Hello @Springtime54 we‘re all thinking of you. How are you?

Barbequebeans64 · 08/04/2026 22:48

Springtime54 · 05/04/2026 07:37

Now I have, it's the immediate panic and dread. Paralysed to do anything. The absolute struggle of getting through another day. I cant do another 40 - 50 years, I just can't.

I actually cried when I read this because this was me 3 weeks ago. I'm sorry it's so tough right now, I'm here if you want to talk

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