the ranting room rrrrrrrrraaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh<theres swearing>

[copingvquietly]

so yesterday i wanted off this planet.hmm today however im so fucking angry with everything.first my fucking internet has been pissing me off all morning.which doesnt help matters.oh and the child decided he was going to be up in the middle of the night for two fucking hours
im tired pissed off angry but not crying so that cant be bad?ive got to go and talk about everything again tomorrow at counsellinghope this temper has gone by then.then endure another round of'yes you are a nutter' on thursday.
padded cell anyone?

right i am clearly on my own.so ill carry on
am pissed off with all this fathers day shite aswell.if i dared send one to my dad hed probably send it back with semtex attached.its not like he hates me or anything.i clearly just dont exist!mind you thats pretty close to how i feel anyway.this person typing this crap isnt the same person she was at the beginning of last year.shes lost somwhere.aaaarrrrgggggggg its all just so fucking unfair

rrrrrrrraaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh im going for a fag

ok thisisnt good.emotions are dying down and turning into something i dont want them to.just had to put the ironing board away.had visions of putting the iron on my handmaybe i should just lock myself upstairs for the day.

Oh CVQ - I have just seen this. I'm sorry that no-one else has noticed yet. I'm sure that folks will be along in a moment.

Don't worry if your temper hasn't gone by tomorrow. Someone in counselling is being paid to listen to you and what you are expressing is real-life emotions. They are trained to deal with it. Let 'em have it!

Thinking of you/praying for you today. So are lots of other MNetters.

Oh and well done for putting away the iron. That was such a positive thing for you to do, even though it doesn't feel like it to you at the moment. You have come so far and you have done so much to help yourself and your little one. One day, it will feel better. And in the meantime, MN is here to help you through this.

Fathers Day etc is a pain in the bum, isn't it? These days are thought up by card companies to make money out of people. Real life just doesn't fit into boxes like that. You know that. But you also know what is real too, and have your fabulous little boy to look at.

Hang on in there/

im ok.this was for my own benefit.i needed somewhere to get the rahhh out.

Hi - you are being hit my so many different emotions now aren't you?

Do you feel you have let the rahh out? I sometimes feel like that too. And I have less reasons than you believe me.

the rahhhs gone but has been replaced by something i dont like.im fighting.

The raaahhh are quite positive really, aren't they. You are allowed to feel angry - you have every right to.

Keep on fighting and let us know if we can help too.

Sweetheart, the computers here are hard to work, but I'm praying for you all the time.
I'm pleased to see you are getting help, but so sorry that it feels as if everybody is letting you down.
Much love and massive hugs

{{{hugs}}}}
I love the idea of a ranting room, and if anyone deserves one you do.
CvQ how you getting on this evening?

im alright thanks.just talking to a good friend over msn

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gentleotter i hope youve got earplugs.am mega huffy

oh ffs.hes crying.im blocked.in pain.cant unblock.rrrrrrrraaaagghhhhhhhhhhhhh
hhhhheeeeeeeeellllllllpppppppppppppppppp!!!!!!!!!
my meds have been upped.am pissed off with the world

oh cvq - like I said before I am on the outskirts of York am not sure if you are about 40/45 mins away from me?

Have school sports thingy this afternoon, but I am free on Monday?

Is he not very well or is he crying because he knows you are unhappy?

cvq?

bellavita cvq asked could i reply she a bit busy at mo expressing, j is fine but cvq has a blocked duct so feeding is a bit of a problem hence expressing

and you know how impatient they are for their milk

That's ok - was just a bit (well a lot) worried.

she is ok although in pain which fingers crossed will end soon but no hand for typing

Sorry you are in pain lovely.