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[copingvquietly]

so yesterday i wanted off this planet.hmm today however im so fucking angry with everything.first my fucking internet has been pissing me off all morning.which doesnt help matters.oh and the child decided he was going to be up in the middle of the night for two fucking hours
im tired pissed off angry but not crying so that cant be bad?ive got to go and talk about everything again tomorrow at counsellinghope this temper has gone by then.then endure another round of'yes you are a nutter' on thursday.
padded cell anyone?

CVQ are you there, keep talking...xxx

im here.empty buthere

{{{{Gentleotter}}}

hello

slips in and leaves a large pile of [[[[[HUGS]]]]] in the corner should anyone need one, then scurries out off to bed

todays not going to be good.i can feel it already mental health are seeing me this morning.how exciting.

have they been yet coping?

Hope you get on ok with the professionals, CVQ. Sounds like you need someone to lean on. Hope they can help.

im now waiting for someone to come back.im not doing well

have they been back coping? Let us know how you are when you can {{{{{}}}}}

yes and i was given something to make me sleep.first full nights sleep i think ive had in over a yr!today i feel great.well i do now i dont feel so groggy.

that is fab coping - I have sleeping pills whihc I use when I need to. It makes a difference to wipe out 6 hours. Can you get some more?

So glad you are feeling geat (atm).

I just took my ipod out of its case to upload a new CD onto it and a blade fell out the back of the case. I really do have to stop hiding them. Because when I come across one it does rather play into my imagination

i dont want to make a habit of having my sleep induced.but if i need it again i can ask.
i havent got any blades here now.i was out of control with them

cvq go to BED

bugger ok

oh god i can feel it

Feel what?

i cant do this anymoreive had about 3 hrs sleep.my boobs hurt because he didnt suck properly yesterday.ive got no energy left and i just want to be me but thats not going to hapen which makes me think i dont want to be anyone.im sick of everything being hard.im sick of j or me being ill.im sick of being tired anxious depressed.im just sick.nothing anyone can say or do can change anything.only i can do that.but i just dont have enough energy.things will get better again i hope but for today this is me

Sweetheart, sorry no one has replied. I hope you and J will be able to curl up in bed together and get some peace. Have you got some nice music to put on? Will he take a dummy if he is lying with you so that he is not on you all the time?

i think people are fed up with me.i dont blame them.im fed up with me

see.ive had enough today and its still morning

Nobody is fed up with you, but it's Saturday and I've had shopping to do. Love you

im here.feeling even more rubbish now.i had a hedgehog in the garden but ive just found out it was dead.ive never delt with anything dead before.ive just put it in the bin.i didnt know what else to do with it.