anyone here atm I can talk to about self harm?

[naswm]

I really dont want to spoil my arms in this good weather but I so want to cut where it really hurts. Hope I havent spoken out of turn, but does anyone here know what I mean?

i keep letting myself down.i feel crap but relieved.

naswm. What about a rubber band on your wrist? I've spoken to many people in my job that cut and have often got them to try this as an alternative. Snap it really hard against your skin. I have it on good authority that it really can be effective and help.

CVQ, hello. friendly wave from solo.

Well, you know its not letting yourself down at all. Its a long climb for you out of all this and there will be stumbles but eventually you will find more and more that you develop better coping techniques that will help you through this.

I don't know how you SH but make sure that you get any medical attention that you might need. Are there any supportive friends you can call?

Sorry you are feeling so down. I have no experience of SH but others on here seem to. The rubber band is something I have heard of before. May be worth a try?

i can deal with this one here.its not too deepi dont want to call a friend.its not fair.im ok.

for you cvq. Wish I could give you a big hug. Sounds like you need one.

thinking of you both x

I have deep scars on tops of my arms - I think they're called 'keloid' scars from where they stick out as they should have had stitches. My two gorgeous little ones ask what they are, what the hell do I tell them? It's enough to have kept me from doing it.

I'm glad you are ok cvq. don't forget though - friends don't mind helping.

So what are you going to do the rest of today?

CVQ you have not let yourself down, you did really well in holding off for so long.

I read this thing this morning about a person who has big weights being placed on his shoulders. Eventually there are too many and he falls down. It said that a combination of being able to offload the weights(worries) and increasing strength(coping techniques) would prevent him from falling down again.

I don't really know much about your history but id guess you have alot of weights on your shoulders, so are already a very strong person to be carrying so much day to day. In the short term you will needto increase your strength slightly(medication/support/coping techniques)to make it easier to bear whilst you work on the long-term to reduce those weights. this should be something the CMHT will help you with.

Hope this makes a bit of sense to you, if not feel free to ignore it.

Lunavix, Im not sure what I would say in your situation but maybe just something simple like' Mummy was porly and it made her arms hurt,but Im better now and they don't hurt anymore'?
When they are older and more able to understand a fuller explanation could be given if they ask

i cant wear short sleeved tops in public either.but most of my cuts are on my legs at the moment.mainly at the top so theyre hidden.

Hi Copingvquietly - I missed your post yesterday, sorry. I have just caught up with all your threads/posts. I am so sorry you feel as you do. If it would help to 'talk' to someone offboard, CAT me and we can email or msn. Meantime HUGS Nxxxxxxxx

Copingvquietly how are you doing? CAT me if you dont want to post on here. Nx

not a good day but so far havent harmed.

well done for that coping. Brilliant. Recognise your achievement

it all went very wrong lastnight.a massive build up of tension.i was fighting with it for nearly two hours.but im ok.mental health are coming this morning aswell

i threw away my blades.i had to.god that was hard.i cant control them i know that.thing is i know they are still around?outside in the bin.but i cant do it anymore i just cant.blades are not good.

Good first step cvq. Keep posting on here or chatting on MSN - anything to take your mind off it when the urge strikes.

How was your Mental Health meeting this morning?

it was ok.not as scary as the last one.ive got some things to think about now.
thankyou for asking xx

im not going to do it.i wont let myself go and get them.ive promised myself and friends i wont and i WILL NOT let myself or them down!they mean to much to me.

No you won't -= you are strong. Much stronger than you think.

im anxious about throwing them away but i know its the right thing to do.i was losing control.i dont want to lose my life or the special people who have come into my life
im going for a smoke.
later x

just remember how strong you are and how far you have already come, proud of you xx