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[Tulips987]

I really want to end my life. I'm consumed by this thought, it's literally all I can think about.

Hi @Tulips987 I’m here, please talk to me

I can't cope anymore. I feel like I'm being tortured every second of every minute. I can't go on like this. I just want it all to stop.

You CAN cope. It’s hard, but you’re going to get through this I promise you

@Tulips987 I’m listening and here for you if you want to tell me anything.

It's not going to get better. I've felt like this for years. All that's to come is more of this and I can't do it anymore.

can I ask you to call the Samaritans ?

It will get better, you’re just feeling particularly low right now

@Tulips987 ring 116123 and talk to someone as long as you need and we will be on here too. Life Is hard but it really is worth living! People care! We care and people love you! You are much better off on this earth than anywhere else.

No, I've called them before and it doesn't help. I texted that shout number as well but they just ask you questions and it doesn't help me. I just want to find out the most effective and least painful way to end this.

We and they ask you questions because we care

It doesn't get better, it never gets better

Sometimes it feels that way, but I promise you it’s not true.

Can you share what you’re struggling with?

I've been like this for years. I've had all the medication and therapy under the sun. Nothing helps me. I just want to go now.

Trauma, crippling depression and anxiety, next to no friends (have a couple that just stick arounr as they feel sorry for me) hate my job, hate where I live. Am fat and ugly. So lonely.

No one sticks around because they feel sorry for you. Friends are friends. That’s your anxiety getting the better of you

Hi, is there anyone with you now?
Do you have someone you could reach out to now? X

I hate my job and I hate where I live! So we have that in common!

No, I'm by myself. I spend most of my time by myself if I'm not at work. There isn't anyone I can reach out to.

@Tulips987 It sounds like you are really going through it right now but as people have said it will get better. I understand you have tried some things before but if things haven’t improved they weren’t the right fit for you. There will be something that will work and help you push through until things get better.

if you want to chat I can send you my number?

Well u have reached out to us on here so that’s something!

It won't get better. This has been 15 years of trying all different kinds of medications and therapies. There isn't anything left to try.

I just want someone to tell me that I'm not going to wake up in the morning.

Are you safe at home? X