Woke up at 3:30am - pain and racing mind. I can't go back to bed because of see above and I have online work meetings anyway on and of until mid evening. Then its bed and another night of not sleeping. How are we only three hours into my day?
I can't settle long enough to focus on anything and I just cry instead. My poor poor family having to put up with me. I wish I could go away, so that I wasn't making things worse for them.
dh will be up soon and he will look all worried at me and I can't bear that.