the Shadow Club

[michaelad]

ok, here we are then..

With me, it's all related. It feels like I have no control over my life at all..and that was the one thing I could do something about..and that no one could take away from me.

mamama yes I totally understand where you are comming form, it's like the chicken and the egg!

I think my ed came because I was depressed as a child then it grew with me, always been part of me.

Michaelad, I know loosing weight is my speciality, I wouldnt want you to think oh she's not as skinny as I thought!!!

God what do I sound like!!

I'm 42 and wouldn't be 24 again for the world.
I was depressed, unconfident, eating disordered, in a job I loathed. Life is so much better today. Hang in there you youngsters - you CAN change, slowly slowly, day by day. If you've had a crap childhood it takes a long time to learn to be kind to yourself.

Lulu, so it's only another 5 years for me and then everything will suddenly fall into place??!! Yippieh!!

Hills, I'd be much more interested in what you have to say than what you look like!

Michaelad, Losty did you see my dreaded Suicide thread?

Michaelad - that's exactly it. The one thing we do have control over ...

Besides, wait til you see me! My size isn't exactly what one would imagine for someone with a bulimia past either!

Oh you are sweet

Not sure I have..
Should I?

Hillls, can you post a link to it? I'd be interested to read it...

{hug}

I have to go now but will be back later.

Actually, I was very unhappy in my early twenties too. I would like to be young again (I'm 34 now!), but wouldn't want to go back to those days IYKWIM?!

I have suffered depression, but am now just major stressed, so don't really belong on this thread, but wanted to say "Hi" and let you know I was thinking of you. (Hi to FS too!)

Well its a bit depressing up to you if you want me to find it and link it? I dont want losty to feel like its not about her IYKWIM?

Link it..we don't have to read it straight away, iykwim.
speaking of which...Losty??? You've gone all quiet again!

this

Heres the link

Losty has gone to get something to eat she's going to try & pop back after

How long/when did you have an ed michaelad?

Do you still have lapses?

5 years in a lifetime is nothing, though is it michaelad

BTW< have a bloke coming over to sort out the ghost on monday!

not frustrating hills, makes me to know how you are feeling, but you can get better, slowly , but surely, and by hook and by crook

hi all
have eaten - now feelin uncofntatble

what hjave I missed?>

OOh the ghost busters are on their way!!

Are they still hastling you then?

Losty

{{{{{{{{{{{{ hug }}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

Well done have a comfy seat here and let me get you a drink.

I've posted a link to my thread I started (the one which got reported) hope this helps you feel less alone ..xx

hiu hillls - not sure I sould have any more wine tbh - but thanks for the confy chair

not read ytour link yet, but I will do, soon,. I know I am not alone btw. But not bieng alone has never really m,ade me feel any bette IYKWIM. knwoing others feel like this doenst help ME does it? or am I dfferent in that? Oh I dknow I am differen lol

No I know what you mean, I think i'm trying to say that we understand & you can relate to us IYKWIM. Do you know what brought on your depression?

I hasve been drepressed since my childhood - but it fluctuates at times - atm it is particlaty bad

Phew...just speed read your thread. Sweeth, that's only 2 weeks ago!!!

Lulu, excellent news about Monday! Fingers crossed! Must let us know what happened!!

Hills, way back when I was in the firm grip of ED, I lost 4 st. in a year.
It is an ongoing battle..much like being a recovering alcoholic. Any stressful situation could push me over the edge..and I am crap at coping.