TTC after a Miscarriage - A Fresh New Start

[Diddle]

Here we go, another new thread for us to fill with our highs and lows.

Lets start off with a good dusting of babydust, think all the rest we had has washed off in the rain

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I am glad to hear that Diddle. Must remember that I am a paranoid hypochondriac so always worry when there are signs like this. Have my fingers crossed for you. xxx

I'm smoking again! Not much but still some. Had bitch of a day so far. will give up again though (going to chill tonight with a drink, a fag and watch BB!).
How's everyone? You hear about the guy getting shot at the train station in London? The police sounded very L.A-esque if you ask me but suppose can't take any chances with these nutters around.

Bad day again today - had to go to GP for blood test results. Well after 5 weeks, they haven't come back! Said to call back in a week, but "they might have got lost, and it's too late now to redo them and get any meaningful results. But it doesn't matter as they probably wouldn't have shown anything anyway". So why bother doing them in the first place then?

I hate the way the b**y GP treats me as if I'm stupid. He kept saying that getting pregnant 3 times in nearly 9 years is a really high rate of fertility and that if everyone was that fertile there would be lots of women with 10 kids around. And that 3 conceptions is more than most people get in a lifetime, and the average woman has less than 2 children so only having one is perfectly normal and I should be really pleased.

He must think I've got an IQ of about 2 if he expects me to fall for that.

You'd think if he's a GP he'd know that the reason most people don't have 10 kids is more to do with contraception than fertility rates. And that the average reproductive rate is influenced by those who choose to have no children.

I can't see that I'm ever going to get anywhere with him when he always just dismisses everything I can say and trots out those totally irrelevant figures which make Roy Meadow's grasp of statistics look positively sophisticated.

Every time I see him I end feeling so bad afterwards that I'm on the verge of deciding that the despair isn't worth it and I might as well give up now [crying emoticon].

Sorry for the rant girls - but I need to tell someone, and try to help myself get over it a bit because I'm supposed to be going out tonight with a friend who has got PG first time of trying with both of hers, and although I'm sure she doesn't mean to be she can be a bit insensitive about it at times.

Afternoon all. Hope everyone's OK.
Just got back from work, had a shorter day today.
Hellkat- oh well, tomorrow's another day, will you try again tomorrow after chilling out tonight?

Poor you Lunarsea
How old is this GP?! He sounds ancient and shouldn't be saying these things. Is there any chance of you changing GPs if he makes you feel this way?

Hellkat - It must be so hard to try and quit, how long have you been a smoker?? we'll forgive you for today, but you really should gte back on the wagon tomorrow

Lunarsea - so sorry to hear of your thoughless gp, some people just haven't got a clue what the right thign to say is. I bet he thought he was being really clever too. I'd change, at a time like this you need support.

Hi Petunia - How are you doing?

Haven't heard anything abotu a shooting will check out bbc online and find out whats happening.

Feel really rough today, soooooooo tired and achy, could seriously go to sleep now and i had a normal sleep last night. Loads to do before bedtime though. Can't be arsed to cook and although i'd love to go out to eat i don't have the energy, so i think its a chinese takeaway for us (again) sure thats something else we're addicted to.
Plus have to get the washing done at the launderette because i won't have time over the weekend.
Just the thought of it all is exhausting.

oh bugger my last mindie's mum has just called she shoudl be here in 15 mins and theres a bomb scare in Birmignham, no trains running she's going to be ages.
aaarrrrrgggghhhh

sorry girls rant over

Hellkat, I know how hard it is, specially when you've had a crap day. All I want to do tonight is down a large amount of wine and chill out. But I promised myself I'd be good til testing time, bummer!

Lunasea, get a new doctor! And make sure the surgery know why. I don't see why we have to put up with grumpy insensitive doctors. There's one doctor at my surgery I refuse to see now. We must stand up for our rights!!!!

Sorry another rant over. Bit weird in London today, lots and lots of police cars and sirens. Nasty. I hope you're lady isn't too late picking up her little one diddle. The world has gone MAD

Lunarsea, I agree about your view of GPs. They treat everyone like idiots. I went to my GP about the fever I have had for 5 days and I felt like she thought I was waisting her time. She didnt bother to ask me about how was getting on since M/C or what happened with the scan she sent me for or anything. DO GPs not understand holistic care. No wonder I pay £38.00 a session for acupuncture. Complimentary therapists at least appear to be interested in how you feel and your views. hmph, my rant over now.

Hi girls

Been out all day with dd and nieces.Fresh air and all that,knock em out.DD fell asleep at 6.30 thats a half hour before bedtime which is good cos i am off there shortly myself as early start for Next sale.

Feeling a bit sore behind c-section scar.Is it a sign? AF due day 31 and no on 22.Cant wait to test.....

Lunarsea,my GP really upset me when I saw her after loosing Philippa. She said I know how you feel it happened to me and went onto tell me about her mc at 12 weeks.Whilst not wanting to dismiss how awful that was for her(I know as had 14wk mc in 1992 and i was absolutley devastated)I had just delivered philippa and felt like dying.I did not realise how hard going though that day and days leading to the funeral would be,it was all so alien to me.She also said'Really you canttakeit for granted,not until you hear them cry'

Diddle,re docs,how late is your AF?

chocolatepeanut - Af is 7 days late today. not sure what to think.

Hope you get loads of bargains tomorrow.

x

AF has arrived, not sure where she has been but i'm not impressed that she got my hopes up. Had a good cry, now i need a glass of wine

Oh Diddle, I'm so sorry. Sometimes our bodies really let us down, don't they? Go and have a glass of wine or 2.

Oh, I am sorry too.
Wonder what the delay was.
Drink the bottle. Tomorrow is another day.

thanks guys, couldn't find any wine, must have already drunk it all, found a 1/4 bottle of champagne though, that will do for tonight.
Going to really look after myself this month now and not drink anymore wine and eat much better, need to get my body healthy. I wonder if all this thinking about it is stressing my body out more than i realise. we'll see what next month brings.

Off to bed now, to read my book and watch the rest of titanic after the news.
have a good evening ladies, and thanks for all your support, you guys are great.

Morning all,
Diddle - Sorry hun! I know it's so hard not to get your hopes up but here's to next month and you will get pg soon!!!
Lunar- Sorry to you too for having a shite gp! God makes me feel soo lucky with mine, he's a love!
CP- Awwww poor you regarding little Phillipa.
Can't think of anything else to make things a bit better for you all so a huge hug is in order :
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for anyone and everyone that needs one!
Decided to quit after the appt on Monday. Dp peed me off yesterday and everything seemed to be aswell! So going to leave it until i get Monday over with. Feel alot happier today though.
How's everyone?
Ohhhhh BB last night! How can they let her stay in over Science? Arrogant little mare! Can't believe she had the audacity to turn around and say "I know I'll be staying, the public will want me in" Grrrr.

morning hellkat, you're an early bird.

have just been onto the next website to try and see the sale and it says come back later

Awww Diddle!
Thought I'd had a lie in this morning. got up and it was sunny (not now though lol). Dressed, came d/stairs, made coffee and saw the time....5am!
You need a good retail therapy/bargain hunt fix today! You deserve one!

Hi Gals!
Just off to our local Costco to stock up for a barbie tomorrow for 6 adults and five kids.

Seemed like a good idea at the time...

Hope you all have a good day. Haven't really caught up with this thread so hugs to those who need 'em and hooray to those who need them.

More later.
Hugs

Spub- Still sounds like a good idea, minimal cooking, no washing up (paper plates). Hope you have good weather though, they're forecasting rain.

Morning girls

Diddle-sorry for the evil one arriving so late. At least you don't have to worry any more about going to the GP. Masses of hugs and heres looking forward to an April baby with me and petunia and anyone else who has AF staying with them at the moment. (((((xxxxx)))))

LunarSea & CHOCOLATEPEANUT-isn't there anyway you can ask for a different GP. At my practice you ring up on the day and they tell you who you will be seeing and there is one that I hate so I always ask for someone else if I get her.(((xxx)))

Work dealt a blow yesterday as someone is changing her days so will be doing 2 of the ones I do so that only leaves me with every Friday However, at least I will be free to work if any of the other branches ring up when they are short staffed. Could be filling it that Tesco app in the letter rack!

AF is still flowing nicely so have warned DH to be prepared to perform from the 1st August and that I don't want any weak mixes so he has to behave himself until then

The weather is not so good here today but not intending to do much today as have been slaving all last week with DD's party and visitors etc.

Wishing you all a lovely weekend with lots of alcohol mixed in!

Byee
x

Goodmorning all. Have been up since 4am to go to the next sale for suits for DH.
Sorry Diddle I was wishing it for you this month. My AF is late too, and before anyone says no I don't think that i'm pg.
As HC, wishing everyone a merrry weekend

Morning All. So Sorry Diddle, your right about being under more stress about it than you thought, specially with all us lot getting excited for you, it probably kept her at bay for longer. Sorry. She an evil witch! Next month. I'm with you on the health kick. I've been good this month and since ov, but let my self have a few glasses last night as we went out with friends. Feel guilty now in case I am pg! But I'll be good from now until test time.

Hope everyone did well at the Next sale, no elbows ladies Enjoy the weekend. Hope it doesn't rain on your BBQ Spub.

Diddle Im so sorry what a nightmare. Its so draining isnt it all this ttcing and waiting and testing. Its just so unfair what had happened to us all. Take care xxxxx

Diddle sending lots of hugs and kisses{{{{{{{{xxxxxxxxxx))))))))))

HC do ask for different GP now cant face regular one

Made Next sale at 5.45.Internet said store opens at 6.00 but bloody opened at 5.00friend and i legged it like mad women but still loads left so bagged £125 of bargains for dd who was so thrilled with them (shes SUCH a girland only 20mths!!)

Love sat nights.DH works late shifts (so early am bding for us is usual but finishes at 8 on sat so curry and vid and chance to catch up.

Enjoy evening girlies.internet order of pg tests not arrived yet......(which is probably good cos i would have used nearly all 10 by now )

Morning all.
Feeling drained here totally. Having the heaviest af in years. Tmi coming up, I'm using super plus pax and nightime pads. They're lasting less than an hour before I have to change! If I don't change then, then there's a big whoosh,. Fed up with it now! Luckily I'm taking multi-vitamins with extra iron so hopefully won't get too anaemic.
How's everyone's weekend so far?
Was giggling at Scary Movie 3 again last night!