TTC after miscarriage Thread 11 🤞🏼✨

[Indianna2006]

@AwayWeGo22 @bunnykins123 @calimc83 @FfayeN @Chellooo @LuckyMoonstone @Luna57 @Margo34 @MrscristianoX @Pancake92 @TheBirdintheCave @theblueflowers @mummatara @ChloeN @Luna57 @everythingzrosie

New thread ladies!! Wishing you all lots of luck 🤞🏼🤞🏼✨

please tag anyone I’ve missed it was just quick and rough xx

@mummatara thanks for the heads up! I moved DH onto procieve max last night which is basically a sachet and tastes absolutely grim. Poor lad. But I'm rattling, he needs to rattle too 😂 so interesting about dairy. I typically don't drink dairy and had my last 3 pregnancies when not drinking it, but was told to move onto full fat dairy as that helps fertility 🙄 good god it's SO confusing! I've decided that none of the professionals actually know and it's just guesswork 😂

@bunnykins123 i was considering getting the proceive max for me and OH. Just keep getting put off by the cost although think it’s buy one get one 1/2 price in H&B at the moment.

6DPO and I was super emotional last night, went out for a meal with OH and he mentioned doing some overtime this weekend and I started crying in the restaurant as I thought he didn’t want to spend time with me…ridiculous 😂 prob too early for any symptoms like that though…

@LuckyMoonstone I'm so sorry (but glad that nothing seems to be anywhere it shouldn't). It sounds like mine in March. I don't know quite how early it was as I was kind of still on the pill and not trying. I got my BFP on 5th March, bled on 9th/10th, had the scan that showed no sign of pregnancy on the 14th, HCG was 43, followed by 27 two days later, but it still took 3 weeks for the tests to disappear. Even though I think I was not quite 5 weeks when I bled. It was mad and heartbreaking.

@bunnykins123 oh bless him 😂 it is only right they rattle too 🙊 well tbh I have no idea how much truth there is to anything I reckon they make it up half the time 😂 I'm not a massive dairy fan anyway I can't stand milk makes me heave and cheese used to give me horrible ibs though weirdly that went after I had DS so I have eaten a fair amount of cheese since then cutting it out again probably won't be too bothersome I've done it before. There are so many dairy free alternatives out there now shouldn't be too hard. The sugar side of things is going to be my biggest struggle.

Feeling so crap today. Wanted to cry all through a meeting this morning. This is normally my favourite time of year from September until the end of the year and I can’t even feel happy about it. I’m just so desperate to fill this hole in my heart😔 and now I’ve got to wait even longer because of my stupid body messing me around. I’ve probably only got two full cycles left until the end of the year. And then it will be a year since I lost my baby boy and I’ll have nothing to show for it, just a year of misery and I’ll be no closer to getting the one thing I want so much. I didn’t think back in January that I’d still be in this position. And it might seem like a small thing but because I’ve lost nowhere near as much weight as I wanted to, I can’t even enjoy dressing nicely this autumn/winter and feel good about myself at my favourite time of year. I’ll just be fat and depressed. What a fucking shit waste of a year.

@LuckyMoonstone lots of virtual love being sent your way ❤️❤️

I contacted bupa fertility testing is not included in my policy so I might do a couple of checks myself if they are not too expensive and see how we get on with supplements a diet changes. I presume I'll have to wait until hcg is at zero again before I can test anything 🤔

@LuckyMoonstone its just shit isn’t it, knowing you should have your baby at Christmas or be at least pregnant again and now the chances of that happening are getting smaller each month. Sorry you feel so shit, sending lots of love xx

@LuckyMoonstone Hang on in there! It's going to get better. Your hormones will still be all over the place, making you feel awful. Blame them - they'll settle down soon and you will feel more like yourself. It's so hard waiting for normality and another chance to try. Im just 2 weeks post mc and it feels like YEARS! Desperate for everything to get back to normal so we can try again. But there will be another chance for both of us. I really hope the next one will be the one that works out for you.

@mummatara thank you ❤️ @ChloeN I was thinking that exact same thing earlier, we should be spending this Christmas with our 2 boys not just one 😔 @lizziecat1 thank you, I hope you’re right

@LuckyMoonstone you are allowed to feel like shit. It isn't fair. Sending you so much love ❤️

@LuckyMoonstone so sorry that you're feeling so down. I feel like I'm seeing babies and peoples pregnancy announcements everywhere. They make it seem so easy. Or people just getting pregnant by accident like how the hell does that happen? Even though sometimes i wonder if i stopped obsessing would it just happen.

Still confusion here. Tests arrived an hour ago typically straight after i had gone to the bathroom so i waited half an hour and got this. Super faint but then i wonder was it because of the short hold. Gonna try hold it till 6 or else the morning if that doesn't happen cause I'm peeing like a mad woman. 🤦🏻‍♀️

I can see that without zooming in :)

@TheBirdintheCave I know yeah! 🙈 You'd think its surely a positive but i had a heavy bleed last weekend so not sure if its just residual hcg or not.

@LuckyMoonstone sorry you feel so shit. Everything you feel is valid though. It’s THE hardest thing to have to wait and hope and wait some more and hope some more. Your time WILL come. You just have to keep going. Keep ploughing on through the shit. It is so hard to do though. When the journey feels endless. Lots of love your way.

@MrsCristianoX aww thank you ❤️ @Indianna2006 I honestly feel like it’s never going to happen for me, I’m just destined to have one child 😔 feel like I will lose every other pregnancy

@Bouncingbeat Oh I see! Sorry I got my wires crossed there.

Guess who lost their bet with themselves 😂 in my best American accent aka bill clinton 'I absolutely did not POAS this morning'

Really proud of myself. I lasted 12 hours. Ffs. Got the infamous easy@home indent @Indianna2006 😂

@LuckyMoonstone I'm so sorry you're feeling that way. It is shit. Honestly, in this place is so hard. I feel like I've gone through every emotion and question everything. I should have have given birth to 3 babies now and it hurts so much. Just know that you're not alone 💕 are you still having pains or have they eased up a bit?

@mummatara is there anything specifically you want tested? As I went with bupa saying I had bad O pains and spotting (which is true) so got a hysteroscopy from them for it. Have you been refereed from the NHS for further tests? I have had them done now too but it took a while for all that to come through. I'm getting our last ones done this month privately and will then decide next steps. I have high NK cells so suspect I'm a lost cause for natural conception now 😥 I'm actually on my way home now to go and get some stainless steel pans and more vitamins. I hate dairy too. I'm only consuming it because of what I've been told. Do I go back to almond milk?! Omggg too many decisions 😱

@MrsCristianoX noooooooo you're like 0dpo girl! Put the tests awaayyyyy!

@bunnykins123 😂😂 my excuse was I felt weird. Most likely the wine last night. At work tomorrow and Friday, DD prize giving tomorrow evening. DH back at weekend so that should keep me busy and well away from testing. Sorry for everyone who believed in me 😂

@MrsCristianoX I think we all go a bit crazy when ttc 😂 I literally stopped testing as the indents did my head in. I swear pre DD they were never that bad!

@MrsCristianoX 😂 yes!!! Deep down I knew you were one of us, come in here trying to better yourself by adding restrictions...silly woman 😂😂😂. The POAS addicts live on!!

@LuckyMoonstone so sorry you're having a rough day. Sending lots of love, it will get easier. Your upcoming results may give you some answers and explain the weight struggle too. Have everything crossed for you x

Ladies, I’m going to be honest, I’ve been keeping an eye on this thread because I’ve just had 2 MC in 2 cycles. I’ve felt like I’ve had no one to relate to but reading your stories & advice has given me so much comfort!

Sorry for spying, I couldn’t not comment any longer! :)

@bunnykins123 it is such a horrible thing to have to go through ❤️ Erm still got pains but they have started on my right side as well now and more into my back. I’m starting to think it’s actually my kidneys, I have a history of kidney issues. And the sharpness down below might be my bladder rather than my reproductive area!