TTC after miscarriage - April 2020 part 2

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I've created us all another thread as we filled the last one!

@mommybear05 I had no idea how long I'd feed for. I never thought I'm definitely going to bf, once he was born though, all I wanted was to get bf right. Every time he woke in the hospital i buzzed for the midwives to check we had got the latch right.

He's already asked more today than he did yesterday and has been difficult to distract!

@Rainbowhope11 when I went into hospital it was the beginning of covid madness, tbh if I hadn't of been so traumatised by the whole event I would've complained. I will definitely not be registering at that hospital for any future pregnancies even though it's a 2min drive from home.

@Renna I also have no clue what goes on with my CM and CP I feel like I unintentionally see or feel what I want to after excessive googling. I was convinced my cervix was high after ovulation but then told OH to have a feel and he was like 'nah it's quite low and firm' I've only been doing it a few weeks and trying to record what I see/ feel so hopefully after a few months it'll have some pattern 🤷🏾‍♀️

@VP91x ill be testing around the weekend too as AF is due mid week next week

@Renna I am but also not really "feeling" pregnant or any other symptoms really when i woke up and had that pinky discharge with fmu i also had a bit of cystitis burning and cant that cause blood in ur urine??
so im now thinking could it have been that but then i had a good drink of cranberry and it was ok the rest of the day.

@francis05 oooh u need to do a test 🙏🙏 an frer would show by now im sure x

@Mommybear05

A New year baby will be gorgeous!! So glad u feel a bit more bk on track what opk testing will u be doing? Abd what apps do u use? Xx

@Hayleylou89 I had a bit of cramping through the night and I've just completely convinced myself that this isn't my month. I'm 9dpo so expecting AF in the next week but suddenly just feel really beaten by the process this morning. I think it's because I feel like now I have to wait like 15 days before I can even think about doing anything to try now and feel a bit lost. This is my first time actively TTC and secretly I kinda convinced myself that it would happen straight away and everything would be great, but looks like I'll be joining the Jan 21 crew @Mommybear05 x

I've just got my fingers crossed for you, @dinosaur17 @VP91x and @francis05 hoping that we get a BFP this week I feel like that will really cheer me up. No pressure ladies 😂

@Hayleylou89 hopefully you get a positive result over the weekend that would be so lovely!! X

@SmileyT I am starting to think maybe just maybe it could have happened. It's so easy to dream of it happening.

@SmileyT and @Mommybear05 Thanks for your replies. I realised after I posted that I had posted on the wrong TTC after miscarriage thread and hadn't even introduced myself on this one so it was a bit of a strange thing to jump in with! Sorry you find yourselves here.

Morning everyone

@Renna feeling a bit better today thanks, going to put my positive pants on and get one with the day. X

@francis05 symptoms sound promising fingers crossed for you. X

@Hayleylou89 when I used to suffer from uti's I would sometimes have blood in my urine, I'm keeping my fingers crossed you get your bfp. X

@Hayleylou89 Yes here’s to new year baby. And if not here to valentines baby or any time baby haha. I know I said I was going to get cb digital Opk this time but now I don’t know. I found opk disheartening last month but maybe that’s Just because I’ve been showing negative every time. My hubby just found out that he is not back at work til 11th May. And I will very likely still be working from home at that point too. So we have no restrictions with our time and we have quite an active sex life anyway (sorry tmi!) so he wants us to just have fun and see what happens. He hated me opk last month and said it made him feel pressured but maybe that was just because I was upset with the negatives. I was using Ovia app.
So now I’m not sure whether to opk. I’ve no pregnancy tests in the house now so I def want to invest in a nice little pink first response one this time and maybe wait a bit longer to test (she says now you watch me when the time comes haha) Xx

@SmileyT it’s not over for you yet though cramping could also be an early pregnancy sign. If af does get you then yes it’s sucky but after a week or so you will be getting the excitement And hope going again. While you are having periods and ovulating there’s always hope. That’s why this thread helps because while I’m waiting to ovulate I Will be keeping up with you girls who are in the 2ww @Hayleylou89 @VP91x @dinosaur17 @francis05 and the time will soon be here again. I think the 2ww is when personally I felt at the lowest because at this stage it is so beyond control. You conceived without trying last time I’m sure u are pretty fertile Xx

@peperethecat ha that sounds like something I would do 🙈

@dinosaur17 that sure passes the time away! I advise you to try not to google I think that’s what got my spirits down in the 2ww last time! X

@Mommybear05 I am also trying to get away from Google you end up down such a rabbit hole don't you!?!

@SmileyT you know i think alot of us really arnt feeling positive about it this month but none of us are out until AF arrives 🙏 xx

@vp91x for sure. I came off the pill for years to ttc my son. One period and then one try and I was pregnant. I know we were very lucky. But after googling I now read it can take several cycles for period to settle and to ovulate after being on the pill. How would I have felt at the time if I had read that? Would it have made any difference knowing this to the outcome? I’ve always said knowledge is power. But sometimes we torture ourselves with it xx

@HE88

Yeah in hoping it is ib as it did seem more like pinky CM then bloody urine... but its a still a doubt in my head that it could be that, just being realistic with myself and not getting my hopes too high as i literally dont feel much else atall tbh especially today at 5dpo i feel completely nothing pregnancy related just wait to see if anything changes over the next few days and test with cheapies over the weekend before using any frer x

@VP91x I'm really rooting for a sticky bean for you (I'd never said this before coming on MN and every time I write it, it makes me laugh 😂).

@Mommybear05 ahh I honestly find your words so soothing. OH keeps saying the same thing about fertility and I keep trying to stay positive but it's blooming hard (I read a lot about the TWW but never really got it until I was in it). I've mentally told myself I'd love a March baby so I'm not too disappointed, but like you I'd love any baby that is mine and healthy whenever they decide to come. I also keep trying to remind myself that I was getting up at 5.30am to go to the gym before work everyday, working 10hr days and going out for dinner with friends when I would've been at the same stage in the last pregnancy so it wouldn't be crazy if I didn't have any noticeable symptoms. I think giving up hope during the TWW is probably the worst thing to do mentally, I'm going to put my big girl pants on, take my vitamins and actually get on with some work to distract me. Sorry for the massive rant but actually feels better to write it all down xx

Best of luck to all our 2WWs! Keeping my fingers crossed for a nice surprise over the weekend! X

Hi everyone, hope you are all okay, had my blood results back today and they are less than 1 so the GP thinks it was a chemical pregnancy. Just got to wait for AF now and for my cycle to settle, has anyone had a chemical before? How long did it take your cycle to get back to normal?I feel like it’s my own fault as we didn’t wait a month after the MMC. What a shit year it’s been so far 😩 (sorry to bring the mood down). Anyway I’m determined for a 2021 baby! (As I’m defo out this month)

@Sallyjo27 Sorry to hear about your chemical. I think your cycle should be back to normal straight away.

@Sallyjo27 sorry to hear about the cp😔 I’ve never had one but I am sure they only tell you to wait one cycle for dating purposes. It’s not your fault! Here’s to the 2021 club x

@SmileyT yes exactly you managed to do it before and you will again. I also like to type all my feelings out. Getting it out there helps xx

@Mommybear05 Absolutely! Google is not my friend! Think I’m my own worst enemy!

Got my (deconstructed!) frer our when I was emptying the bins. Now there’s def a line but I don’t think any colour and I know FRERs can be awful for indents. Thankfully I’ve used up all my tests haha! X

@Sallyjo27 So sorry you’ve found yourself here. Fingers crossed for you that your cycle returns to normal quickly x

Does anyone used the fermometer premium app?, I've just started using the basic free one just trying to work out if it's worth paying to upgrade for a few months ?xx