2WW... The longest wait

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Hi, I was just feeling a bit down in my 2ww and wanted to share a bit. I'm trying so hard not to symptom spot but it's impossible.

Im around 7 or 8dpo, I couldn't pinpoint the actual day as LH tests were inconclusive, CM got very watery one day and the next seem thicker so I'm hoping that's when I ovulate. I have sore boobs, slight backache, weird ache very low down in my abdomen, almost like an internal bruise. If I stand, sit or bend then I feel it ache.

Cervix is high and soft, creamy CM, little bit of nausea but that's probably because I'm working myself up... I stupidly did a test this morning which was a bfn so feeling even worse now!

I know everyone else feels the same way but I wish I just knew one way or another... I'm 35 so worried that's affecting my fertility too.

Thanks, just needed to vent a bit x

Oh is there? Let’s see? @autismfamily still no af and my boobs are a bit sore but surely it would have showed up on my test if I was xx

@Donthaveaclue1 how are you doing hun?

@helensss here u go Hun. I have been checking cp and it's still high ( very high) soft and closed, cm is light sort of creamy and watery. I have a headache sore boobs, tired and temp is slowly rising.
You can't be sure when you ovulated after MC so you never know hun. Maybe book a doctor appointment to put your mind at ease xx

@autismfamily oh yeah I can see that! I’ve literally just come on which is good, new month and new hope to get through. So glad I’ve got this group! Xx

@helensss sorry this wasn't Ur month but glad u got your answer so you can start a fresh xx

Xxx @autismfamily

Hi guys, sorry been away for the weekend and haven't really had time to look on here so just catching up now!

@AutismFamily I can definitely see a line on that one hun, how many dpo are you now?

@Helensss so sorry your period came but at least now you can start afresh on this new cycle and you're not in limbo. Fingers crossed this month is your month!

Got my midwife booking in appointment this morning, eek! 😃

@peasando good luck for today I bet your so excited!! X

Thanks @Sauty, I am! Sitting in waiting room 20 minutes early and bursting for a pee I can't have because I know they'll want a urine sample!! 😂😂

@helensss how are u Hun I know first one can be a hard one so wanted to check in on u xx
@peasando hi Hun how have u been did today go well? Did u check your cp in the 2ww? xx

@autismfamily that’s so nice of you thank you 😘 I’m ok im glad it’s come back really and will give it a good go this month. How are you doing? And @peasando that’s very exciting! Xx

@AutismFamily I didn't really check I'm afraid - I've never really been able to work out what it is 🤔

Oops hit send too soon, yes it was fine, same midwife I've seen before so she understood why I am so anxious which is good!

Discovered I've put on a stone since I found out!!! Argh!

@helensss I'm glad Ur ok and defo give it all u got this month. I'm ok was a bit panicked as my cervix was a bit harder (not much) and little bit lower today still classes as high but u know what we like lol also my temp is 0.1 lower so as u do with that my conclusion is I'm out lol. Xx
@peasando that's good u got the same midwife I find that helps myself as they know u and u got a repore with them. Oh don't worry about the weight your just giving baby a nice comfy home. I think that put to much on the bigger girls to the skinny ones, now I'm not saying being over weight is the best thing to do but under is worse in my opinion as there is nothing for the baby least with bigger there is more lol.
So ladies I just done a test not fmu and it's a blue dye so u know what that means but took pic in 5 mins and had to take apart to see better see what u think? Xx

Hi @AutismFamily I can definitely see a line on the pics where you've taken it apart. Have you done another one today?

@peasando no Hun me and other half had argument last night as he don't know if he wants to have baby xx

Ah @AutismFamily I'm sorry to hear that. Are you ok? Was it just a wobble do you think or is he serious about it? xx

@autismfamily oh no really, had you already decided you were going to have one? Mine has said something similar before when he saw how stressed I was xx

@autismfamily that sounded silly, of course you probably decided

Hi ladies. My head is in a right funk ATM. I think he is serious about it and his reasons for not wanting to do it right now are valid. Turns out when we split up a few months back (although it was the strangest thing as we still slept together after the first 6 weeks and both wanted to be together it was his mum that stopped us) he Got into loads of debt he was spending money to ease his pain and stuff. Also his mum is still in aware we are trying again she is a big problem. He is also about to start a new job. So I do get it there is things there I just wish he had been more honest before. Now I don't know what do xx

@AutismFamily that does all sound very difficult. I'm sorry you're going through all that. The tests you've done this week looked as though they had lines on them though, so is it possible the decision has been taken out of your hands...?

@peasando the test I done today on frer looked neg so gonna wait to see if af turns up in a few days xx

Hope you're ok hun xx

@AutismFamily, I can understand both your concerns hun but there’s never really the perfect month to conceive. There’s always going to be doubts when family planning and even in the first few weeks of pregnancy I’m sure most women have had a wobble or two about the changes to come.
My first born was a surprise baby, I had only been with my boyfriend 10 weeks when I found out. The month I conceived I had bought myself a brand spanking new car using every spare penny I had - I’d saved for over a year to buy a car and at the showroom I bought a ‘Girl About Town’ type car, that was the size of a postage stamp.I had to dismantle my baby’s travel system just to fit it in the boot, and in winter weather it was hell. Fitting another adult, baby and a big shop was like a Mensa Challenge, but crucially I had to rely on the bank of mum and dad for all my sons bedroom furniture etc because I had no savings left whatsoever and his DNA dad was long gone. Turned out to be the best thing that ever happened to me in my life and he’s my world (along with his little sister obvs). He’s about to turn 13 this year and although I did eventually get a bigger car, I still have that little one because my husband uses it to get to work. 😂

@autismfamily there isn’t the right time I don’t think. We aren’t financially in the best place,
I’m kind of waiting around in my job as I get on really well with the boss and I know they’d be good to me with maternity and coming back to work part time. But I don’t earn very much, my husband has gone back to uni and is plodding in his job too so I don’t think anyone is ever ready! Have you had a proper chat with him to work out what he really wants? Haha @sauty that’s funny, reminds me of the film 9 months but Hugh grant is you in the little car 😂 x