2WW... The longest wait

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Hi, I was just feeling a bit down in my 2ww and wanted to share a bit. I'm trying so hard not to symptom spot but it's impossible.

Im around 7 or 8dpo, I couldn't pinpoint the actual day as LH tests were inconclusive, CM got very watery one day and the next seem thicker so I'm hoping that's when I ovulate. I have sore boobs, slight backache, weird ache very low down in my abdomen, almost like an internal bruise. If I stand, sit or bend then I feel it ache.

Cervix is high and soft, creamy CM, little bit of nausea but that's probably because I'm working myself up... I stupidly did a test this morning which was a bfn so feeling even worse now!

I know everyone else feels the same way but I wish I just knew one way or another... I'm 35 so worried that's affecting my fertility too.

Thanks, just needed to vent a bit x

How's everyone doing? @AutismFamily how are things with you? Really hope you had good news. I am back in the TWW - it's like Groundhog Day!

Yeah @AutismFamily, how’s it going hun?
I had a busy last week but thought I’d pop by for an update on how your getting on.
@peasando good luck with your TWW, back on track again have you got your stick order through and ready?

Hi @sauty and @peasando
Sorry I have been MIA. Been trying to get my head around it all. But in the end it wasn't good news. How are u both xxx

@AutismFamily I’m so shocked and sorry to hear this news I was really hopeful for you, so sad.
All pretty rubbish my end, I had to have my dog euthanised last week only 6 weeks after my other dog was also put to sleep so been in a haze of confusion and dog-grief. First time in 22 years I’ve not had a canine at home with us so I feel a bit lost I guess. Anyway that’s my crappy week. What’s your plan of action now Hun, I know we talked about it being your last attempt, are you mentally prepared for that? This journey we have been on is not only physically demanding but mentally too. I do hope your dealing with the emotional side of your journey as well as can be expected. X

@sauty I'm sorry to hear that. I really do feel your pain puppies are like our babies I think. I really don't know what I want to do atm. My head says don't put yourself through it and my heart said just one last time. What don't help is I got one friend who is pregnant and has said she only done it coz I was and she thought it would be a cool journey to take together ( this was when I miscarriaged a few months back) and when I lost mine she realised it was a bad idea, but by then it was to late and now she is stuck with her choice. I have also got another one who had got rid of a baby 2 weeks ago because she didn't like who the dad was (sorry but I get that everyone has the right to choose but that made me sick she chose to have sex with him unprotected. Also let's just say she was very close to the cut off line to having it done)and now wants to have one with someone else. Xxx

I have a friend like that @autismfamily it’s so upsetting isn’t it! What does MIA mean if you don’t mind me asking? X

Ah @AutismFamily I'm so sorry to hear it wasn't good news, I really thought it was your month. It's so hard seeing other people getting pregnant as well, I know how you feel. Before I had DS I was pregnant the same time as my best friend but I miscarried. Not only did I have to watch her grow and have a baby a couple of days before what would have been my due date, but she went on to have two more children while I just kept having miscarriages. Her youngest is 6 months older than DS. Obviously I was happy for her every time but at the same time it just makes you want to cry.

What do you think you'll do? It sounds like you might want to give it one last go?

@Sauty so sorry about your dogs that's so very sad. I actually still have quite a lot of sticks left over from my bulk order last month (not sure how, the amount I tested!) so now I'm just having to give myself a regular talking to...no peasando there's no point in testing at 3dpo... 🤪

Morning everyone
@helensss it means missing in action so basically being missing from the convo.
@peasando I'm not sure atm tbh, Friday is my baby boys anniversary of losing him so I got that on my mind too. Xxx

Thinking of you @AutismFamily, hugs xx

@peasando Thank u Hun means alot. How are things for u xxx

All fine here thanks @AutismFamily, just embracing the 2WW madness again and symptom spotting like mad even though I promised myself I wouldn't!

Hi everyone how are we all? Xx

Hi @AutismFamily, all good here...cautiously optimistic because this happened!!! Top one is yesterday (11dpo) and bottom one is today.

How are you doing hun? xx

Oh wow Hun I can definitely see them both so happy for u @peasando
I'm not bad. I have no idea when I ovulated as I wasn't trying as I said but I had sex on the 7 then had cramping the next day in the evening really bad, had sex again the day after now I woke up this morning boobs a sore, nipple's huge and darker and really really sore and sensitive. Felt a bit icky and my cm is totally different this month to when I have had symptoms in past its dried up xx

Clear positives there @peasando!!!
Congratulations and keep us informed.!!!
I’m on my TWW now,. 😬

Oh wow @AutismFamily that sounds really promising. They do say that it happens when you're not trying! When is AF due?

Thanks @Sauty! Still in shock I think, I'd pretty much given up this month. Fingers crossed for you, how are you feeling? Xx

@peasando I'm not sure on my app it says, in 2 weeks but that is also sayin I'm meant to be ovulating at the min but there is no way with this cm. I'm thinking it was more likely tail end of last week xx

I did do a test this morning xx

@AutismFamily oh hun it's so hard isn't it? You know your body best and apps can't always get it right. If you think you o'd around the 7th though then you'd only be 5dpo today so very early for a test (I was also testing at 5dpo though so I can't say anything!) I just mean that a negative test today doesn't mean you're out this month xx

@peasando yh I totally get ya hun. I think there maybe a faint line but will have to wait and see I done the whole if u turn away and look back and see it straight away trick lol. What was Ur symptoms xx

@AutismFamily haha I know the turning round trick well! I actually just posted my symptoms on another thread so I have them here! Here you go - sorry for the tmi...

April 2019

3 dpo very smelly poo (way TMI!), lots of ewcm
4dpo strong smelling urine, very sore upper back, thirst, tired
5dpo upper back still sore, thirsty, tired, dizzy when standing. Boobs feel heavy. Creamy cm (loads)
6dpo sore back, nausea, dizzy, mild cramps, poss squinter on IC
7dpo diarrhoea, sore boobs, watery cm. BFN on IC
8dpo sore boobs, blue veins, some nausea, back ache, watery cm, constipated, really smelly wind. Shattered (went to bed at 8:30) BFN on IC and FRER
9dpo extreme nausea, thirsty, hot, sore back, headache, sore boobs, constipated. BFN on FRER.
10dpo sore back, slight dizziness, tender boobs, headache, nausea in afternoon, spots. BFN on FRER and IC.
11dpo sore back, nausea, poss squinter on IC, faint BFP on FRER!

@peasando thanks hun. I'm gonna test in a few days time and see what happens if that was a faint line I'm seeing it will be darker if not then I'm just mad lol xx

@AutismFamily keep us posted, 🤞🏻 for you xx