The waiting game!!!

[Itwillhappenforus]

TWW officially begins!!!!!

AF due 13th May and have no idea of how I'm going to wait that long!

This is our first cycle TTC baby #1 and since we have decided to try I have been very anxious. I just want this to happen, my close family have all had fertility issues and I've convinced myself I will too.

Just thought I'd start thus for support for all wanting some words if encouragement.

Hello girls! I'm so sorry about going missing for so long. So much has happened over the last month. But before I start talking about myself...

soda CONGRATULATIONS!!!! I'm so happy to hear that you had a wonderful day on your wedding. Cant believe I missed wishing you the best on your special day. Am sure it was amazing. Noticed any change since being married?

elle am sorry to hear about the bleeding. I can imagine it must be really devastating especially given how well you have done with the running and weight loss. And talking about the running! You are my hero runner! I'm so impressed! I know I was away for a month but gosh, you are now running for half an hour?!

bourbon so good to hear from you and am glad that your good job is going so well.

london am sorry AF came. fx for you that it will be your month soon.

sunflower & pickled welcome on board.

Okay, so...
I had a wonderful holiday! DP proposed one day when we were hiking in the Lake District. The view was beautiful and there were just the 2 of us. However, the ring is way too HUGE, so have to get it resized (which is another long and frustrating story with the shop but I'll not bore you).
So, I've just been busy wedding planning for the last month. We've got venue booked, save the date sent, invitation card designed, photographer shortlisted, make up artist shortlisted, and overall ideas for hen do decided. Found a wedding dress that I absolutely love from monsoon but they dont have my size anymore :(
Then 2 days ago, as you know I'm on that study which makes me test crazily early, I got my BFP! I was not expecting it at all and could not believe my eyes. Did a second one with a different brand to double check and it's still BFP. I've now been testing for 3 consecutive days now, but it still hasnt sunk in properly. I guess it's partly cos of the previous mc's but also because I've been really distracted by wedding planning and not expecting anything.
So, perhaps what other people keep saying is right, it happens the moment you stop thinking about TTC.

Sorry about the me me me, but really want to share this with you. I hope you wouldnt mind me to keep checking in, esp as I really dont know what might happen in the next few weeks... fx

gakay!! I'm THRILLED for you! Congratulations!! I've been trying to get back on here since I saw your post but I think mumsnet has been down for a few days.

I'm now going to ask you a million questions! You said you'd tested early - do you know how many DPO you are? Any symptoms yet? So exciting that you're engaged too! When's the big day? Will the pregnancy affect things (dress etc?). Huge congratulations! Please do keep popping by - we don't want to lose you on here, it feels like we've all gone through a lot together, not just in the TTC world.

elle - how are you doing? Hope you're feeling better.

I'm due AF on Saturday (the day we jet off on honeymoon. Typical!). I'm getting increasingly excited this month but really trying hard not to get my hopes up... I've had no spotting at all (I've had it a bit in previous months) but lots of creamy CM and my nipples are agony! They always hurt straight after ovulation and then calm down again after a few days til they're fine again before AF but they still really hurt (very hard to shower with the water hitting them and also tender in my bra). Have also had constant lower back pain and cramping feelings. I stupidly tested on Sunday which would only be 6/7dpo. I think I'll test again tomorrow morning... Have been really trying not to symptom spot but this month I'm really hopeful that this is it. Fingers crossed! Xx

soda thank you. It still doesn't feel real yet. Am now on my way to hosp to get a prescription for progesterone and aspirin as precaution. Prob won't need it but it would reassure me I'm doing everything esp when recommended by gynae.

I started testing from 7DPO but it stayed -ve on CBFM until 11DPO though I thought I saw a faint line on 10DPO.

I've got no symptoms whatsoever! So it worries me a bit because this time in the prev 2 I already had symptoms. But may be having something different is a good sign. So may be what you are experiencing is also a good sign. My spotting also miraculously stopped last month! Fx for you. Depending on which tests you are using tmw may still be too early to pick anything up. I really hope this is your month as well!

The big day is in mid Feb so if all goes well bump would be quite big already. But I've found a couple of dresses I think would be OK online from Australia. Hoping I would find something similar here.

So much is happening and work is really hectic too. Feel like I might implode soon...

Oh, just remembered I've been having quite a bit of creamy cm this cycle...

OMG...I have been trying to get on here for days! Just checked in and WHOA GOOD NEWS to hear!! Well done gakay I am just so pleased for you. Engaged and BFP, don't be getting greedy now . Oh I am so pleased for you...all your wishes...please stay in touch would love to hear how you are getting on! Yeah I know I can't believe that I am running for 30 minutes! I have finished the 9 week app i used to get started and by the last week of it I was running the goal of 30 mins, all I am doing now is continuing to run for 30 minutes 3 times a week. Once I am comfortable running it I am going to stretch a bit further. Would definitely recommend the app.

soda enjoy your honeymoon, I didn't get one and I am nearly 5 years later one day husband will fly

So thanks for all the words of encouragement and soda your comment about how far I have come in 6 weeks really hit home, it is only 6 weeks I really struggle with patience! Thanks for reminding me that this is not something that will fix quickly and each time I get on the scales and I have lost weight then my chances of getting my BFP get greater. The research seems to suggest that losing 10% really does greatly increase the chance of conceiving naturally when you have PCOS.

Thanks again.

Glad you're feeling better about things elle. I can't believe you're running 30 minutes 3 times a week - wowsers!

gakay - hope you got your prescription and are doing ok.

I got BFN this morning but still early I guess. My nipples are less sore today so feeling a bit negative about things now. I don't chart temps so not exactly sure when I ovulated - I just use OPKs. Got a positive last Saturday so figuring that I Od on the Sunday. Would that be right? In which case I'm 10dpo.

I always get AF 14 days after my positive OPk (except last month when I was a day early!) so expecting AF on Friday or most likely Saturday. Obsessing much more this month than previously... Really going to try not to test again til Friday Saturday...

soda 10dpo is still really early....try and wait till Saturday, easier said than done I know, fingers crossed for you this month xxx

AF arrived this morning. The one positive thing I can say about it is that at least it doesn't keep me guessing and hoping - it arrived first thing in the morning loud and clear. Pretty gutted and had a little cry this morning. I just really expected to be pregnant by now. I know that sounds ridiculous but basically everyone I know seems to have got pregnant straight away, why does it have to take me so long? Sorry for huge pity party. I'm ok really. I'm going on honeymoon tomorrow for 2 weeks so we'll certainly be giving it our best shot while we're away! And on the plus side I can definitely enjoy some alcohol!

I'll check in now and again while I'm away. Hope everyone is well and has something nice planned for the bank hol xx

soda hope you are enjoying your honeymoon.

Just a short one from me as am feeling really sad. Think I've lost my 3rd pg. Noticed I'm not feeling pg this morning, so did a pg test and its negative. Guess I can't have all my wishes come true all at the same time.

Soda where is your honeymoon. Hope you having a good time and come back pregnant. Congratulations. Am in waiting game again. Af due sat but suspect she will come.

Gakay no I am so sorry! How horrid I am thinking of you x

Soda enjoy that honeymoon!

london did AF arrive? mine is due today, poas anyway yesterday BFN so suspect she will come, although I think she will not come today. I am finding that my cycle is extending slightly!

Hi girls, just checking in.

gakay - I'm so so sorry to hear your news. Is there any way to confirm it? Perhaps they could do an early scan? Or is it too early for that? Have you had any bleeding at all? Is it a similar time to last time? Sorry if these are insensitive questions. I'm thinking of you and really hoping somehow that you're wrong!

elle and london - hi! Having a great time thanks. I'm sitting by the pool in the Caribbean at the moment Just finished AF and on CD5. Unfortunately I think my peak time will be the weekend we get home but I'm just going to really relax and enjoy the next couple of weeks and not think about baby things too much.

elle is that a sign that your PCOs are getting better if your cycles are getting longer? I hope so!

london I'm keeping fingers crossed that AF stays away for you.

soda I'm so jealous! Wish I could be in the Caribbean. Enjoy your holiday!

I've not had any bleeding. Not even a tiny bit of spotting. Got advice from my gynae by email. She agrees that its an early mc. I was due for an early scan with her next week so will see if I bleed by then if not I can see her then. I've also got an appt for an HSG and a f/u appt with her the following week at the fertility clinic. Am so glad that I'm already on the system so don't have to wait too long to be seen although it may not be the most appropriate clinic.

Elle has AF come yet?
I can't wait for mine to come so that I can start again. Though am not sure how I would cope if and when I get a BFP again.

Gakay I am so sorry how upsetting it must be to see that line and then it go away. I really hope you are ok . At least things are in place and you are getting some medical help.

No AF for me, on CD29 I normally have a 26-27 day cycle but it has gone as long as 29 days before (back in April). I have of course poas, first thing this morning and since CD27 and nothing but a BFN. I do not think I am preg at all. I had bad inter-menstrual bleeding this cycle about 8 days worth from cd14 so do not for one second think I even ovulated! This is so frustrating!!!!!!!!!!!!

soda i so wish I was on a beach in the Caribbean, I am so jealous but also very happy for you, enjoy x

My bleed has finally started! Its a bit more painful than usual but then I don't normally have any pain. Am glad that at least I can start a new cycle again.

Elle I know it is really frustrating but guess we can only just keep trying. I hope you get a BFP soon or for AF to arrive so that you get to start a new cycle of hope again.

Hi so AF just arrived. ...strange for it to arrive this late in the day it normally comes first thing!! Anyway onwards and hopefully upwards, like you say new cycle of hope. 1lb off this week, which I am pleased about as my diet has not been great this week although still running 3 times a week. So positive thinking this could be the cycle when I ovulate just getting through a cycle with no weird bleeding would be a good start!

gakay I'm sorry it wasn't meant to be for you this cycle fingers crossed for the next cycle xxxx

Elle my cycle always starts later in the day. Looks like we can be cycle buddy this round. Well done for sticking with running and losing more weight.

My childhood friend has come to visit from abroad and is staying with us. I've not seen her in 2 years and during this time she's found her new husband and given birth to her baby - all completely unplanned. I'm really happy for her but it was also really difficult to hear her talking about how much she loves being a mother (she used to say how she didn't ever want to have a baby) whilst I was miscarrying. She was tried to brush aside my mc by reminding me the happiness of my upcoming wedding. I'm so glad that I've got the wedding to look forward to. And I am happy that I've found my OH. He is such a lovely man. Anyway, its Friday! Meeting my BMs tmw and will be trying dresses!

Proper cycle buddies this month! Full flow today, trying to work but am really suffering with cramps. My periods have always been painful (when not on the pill!) from the very start I used to miss a least 1 day of school a month!! Think I am going to have to go home early I just need to take strong painkillers and curl up!!

That must have been so horrid, i'm quite lucky in that my circle of friends have all had their babies so don't hear baby news often. I just think some people have to talk about themselves even if it makes them insensitive. Because she has not had these struggles she just doesn't understand, if i hear it will happen one more time! I am sure all she was really wanting to do is give you her news and try to cheer you up by reminding you that you have a wedding to sort. Dresses....ahhh the memory, it is great fun so enjoy, you will just know when it is the right one!

Bring on the next cycle, it could be the one for both of us

Cries and heads for the wine. Have booked appt at gp. Congratulations soda x

Argh! Just typed a long message and lost it!!

So will just quickly check in for now.

elle - sorry about AF - is it positive your cycles are getting longer?

gakay - I'm so sorry for what you're going through. And for insensitive people. I'm glad you're in the system though. Hopefully that will help fast track you. And how did the dress shopping go? Did you find something? It's such an exciting time!

london - did AF arrive for you too? I'm sorry.

Looks like you're all cycle buddies now! I'm a bit ahead of you all - cd9 so nothing much to report. Just relaxing, DTD every day because we want to and not because we have to - it's lovely!

Have good weekends everyone xx

Elle think I'll be your cycle buddy in spirit. I'm due for the HSG scan next Monday and think it would be when I'm ovulating (if mc isn't messing up my cycles too much) so probably will need to skip this cycle cos of the radiation. Hate the idea of wasting potential opportunities.
Also heard about a trial in Coventry for women with recurrent mc. Am thinking about going there to get extra investigations done, and it also requires to skip TTC for a month.
Anyway, how was your wkn? Hope AF pain has eased.

London hope you are feeling better. Have you got your GP appt? What is it for?

soda sounds like you are having a great time! Enjoy yourself!

I had a lovely day on Saturday with my bridesmaids planning the wedding and trying on dresses. I thought/think I've found the dress. But my parents seem to hate it. It's quite upsetting. Guess they are used to seeing brides wearing big wedding dresses whereas I like the opposite of that. They like thick material and I like flowy one. I felt really torn yesterday whether I should just get sth conventional to please others or to get sth I feel special in and risk people thinking I look hideous. Today I feel more certain again about the dress. Will try it again next wkn and decide then.

Morning ladies, I hope you are all well.

gakay how are you doing?? How did the scan go? Have you looked into the trial anymore?

London how did the appointment go? you ok?

soda hope you are having (or had) a great honeymoon, was it fab?

So then AF has been and gone, about to enter my fertile week am CD9 and so far no bleeding although it tends to come later on in my cycle. So weigh in last night and another 1lb off so that is nearly a stone off now, should hit that target next week if I am good in the coming week. That leaves me another 5lbs to go until I hit the 10% target the GP set me, although I want to actually lose at least another stone. So fingers crossed things are getting better with the PCOS!

Happy Friday all

Hi everyone. It's been a bit quiet here and hope everyone's been well.

Elle well done! It's amazing how quickly you are going to meet the target set by your GP. Am sure things are improving with the PCOS, and am sure you are also getting healthier and fitter which is really important as well. Am so happy for you.

Scan is on Monday next week. Don't think anything would be wrong from the scan as it seems my problem is with keeping the pg going. It's just another tick box thing to get through.
Yes, found out more about the trial. Talked to a few women who have been and found it really helpful but will need to not TTC for 3 cycles! Talked with DP about the trial. At first he didn't like the idea about not TTC for so long but he agrees it's better to get everything tested in case there is sth wrong that can be treated. So I'll just be here supporting you girls and cheering you on whilst taking a break from TTC.

This reminds me of you, bourbon. How are you doing? Hope the new job is treating you well and you are having an exciting time.

soda can't wait to hear more about your honeymoon!

London thinking of you too. Hope you are OK.

Have a lovely weekend everyone.
Tomorrow am going with DP for his appt to get measured up for his wedding suit then hopefully if weather is nice we'll go for a walk in Richmond.

Hi girls, just at the airport with a spot of wifi waiting to fly home - boooo! Have had a fantastic time. Ive been trying not to think about baby making but I did bring a couple of ovulation tests with me (couldn't help it!) and got positive yesterday and today so really pleased - slightly early for me (I'm CD15 today and have tended to get positives on CD18). But been really relaxed and DTD lots so fingers crossed!

Will write a less selfish update when I'm home!!

Have a good weekend everyone xx

Hi girls, just a quick one, gakay how was the scan, was it as you expected? It will be difficult to not TTC for 3 months when I know you want it so much. What I would say finding out that I was not ovulating (YET) really took the pressure off actual and things got so much better as I was not thinking about TTC. Perhaps the break will do you good, I do hope so.

bourbon, not heard from you for a while, how is the new job?

soda can't wait to hear about the honeymoon!

london how are you?

So bleeding AGAIN, CD11 now CD13, seems much lighter, and just there when I wipe, but you can never tell what it is going to do! So no ovulation yet.....think this is going to be a long journey! Will keep smiling or at least trying to.

See you all soon.