The waiting game!!!

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TWW officially begins!!!!!

AF due 13th May and have no idea of how I'm going to wait that long!

This is our first cycle TTC baby #1 and since we have decided to try I have been very anxious. I just want this to happen, my close family have all had fertility issues and I've convinced myself I will too.

Just thought I'd start thus for support for all wanting some words if encouragement.

Hi ladies! I've been a bit too long away... i had to find the thread as it wasn't saved!

soda congrats on the wedding & hope you had a lovely honeymoon :) and also looking forward to hearing about the honeymoon

Gakay I am so so sorry, what a rollercoaster of emotions for you. Your engagement sounds wonderful - did the ring get re-sized? And how are the plans going? February wedding sounds lovely :)

london how are you?

elle hope you are OK, I still get mid cycle bleeding, and its all a bit random, but hopefully will keep tracking and seeing any symptoms and will head to docs before we start ttc again to ask any advice by then.

And hi to all of you newbies (or not so newbies I guess!!!)

For me - its been crazy since starting new job - but I love it. We are just back from our trip away where i was MOH - which was lovely... it literally feels like we haven't stopped since I started my new job, and now back into it. But it has been going really well so far - and hopefully will continue to go well.

I think we will start ttc after Christmas or at some point in the new year... just need to figure it all out really, and with me really liking my job it makes it harder thinking about when to ttc. But we do want a baby so need to just figure it out and when it happens it does. This month I had to take the pill again to delay AF as otherwise it was going to ruin the holiday, and with my endo pains as bad as they have been I didn't want to risk it - so now I'm dreading when it does arrive!! Sure it will be OK...

Anyway - promise not to leave it so long again! Things will calm down a bit now MOH duties are finished and its just work...

Hugs to you all xxxx

Elle sounds like bleeding is later and lighter - may be a good sign. I agree with you that now that we are not TTC it does take quite a bit of pressure off. And am really enjoying a beer or 2 every now and then. Actually I really fancy a glass of bubbly. Need to find an occasion to have one soon.

Scan was OK yday and no discomfort at all to my surprise. The consultant was really nice. I think she struggled a bit with getting the dye in the right position so it took longer. She thinks it looks fine but she didn't seem completely sure. Am seeing gynae tmw and will find out all the results including DP's SA.

bourbon so good to hear from you! Am glad to hear you are loving your job. I know what you mean about not knowing when to TTC again. It is hard for us as women as this does affect our career and its difficult to manage both.

Yes, ring has been resized but its still a bit loose. Really want to resize it again but am worried that I would be seen as causing too much trouble.
I'm very proud with my wedding planning progress. Think have found the dress but will try again this wkn to make up my mind. Found hairdresser and makeup artist - need to book a trial though. Shortlisted a couple of photographers. Found cake maker and have a good idea of the kind of cake we want. Started a couple of DIY projects for wedding decoration.
Elle you're right. Wedding planning is really fun!

Just left the clinic appt. It was a complete waste of time! Because it was a gynae/fertility clinic, and I've had 3 mc's which are all unexplained they said I need to get referred to a recurrent miscarriage clinic but they can't refer, has to be done by GP. I knew that's the case and told my GP b4 but she naively said the Hosp would do it. Now have to go back to square one and book appt to see GP to get referral done. So frustrating. I don't know why I feel so disappointed when I knew this wouls be the case anyway...

Hello everyone! Sorry for not being around. Stuck in deep depression at being back at work!! I had a completely amazing honeymoon. We really pushed the boat out and did everything - hot air balloon ride, snorkelling with amazing fish, private dinners on the beach. It really was the holiday of a lifetime!

So I got positive OPK on the last 2 days of the holiday so just keeping fingers really crossed that it's worked this month. Also used pre-seed again. I just can't ever see a time again when we'll be so relaxed and we have the opportunity to DTD so much!

I'm on CD21 and AF due next Wednesday or Thursday. I tend to get AF either exactly 2 weeks after my first positive OPK test or the day before that. So my cycles tend to vary slightly in length depending on my positive OPK. So it'll be slightly shorter this month (27 days) as I got my positive on CD14 and it's been as late as CD18 before. As far as I can work out anyway!! Going to really try and be strong as well and not do tests unless AF late. I'm so sick of seeing BFN! But we'll see how that goes!

Anyway, enough about me!!

elle how is the bleeding going? Hope it's still lighter than normal. That surely must be a good sign and hopefully a bit encouraging for you?

gakay that is so frustrating about the clinic. Will it take long to be referred? When do you get the results from your other appointment? Did you decide about going in the trial? It must be a tough decision to stop TTC for 3 months when you want it so much. Such exciting news about your wedding! You're so organised! Did you decide on the dress in the end? It's tricky trying to keep everyone happy. The dress I got in the end wasn't my mums favourite (she didn't say anything I could just tell by her reactions) but i knew OH would love the one I got and I felt amazing and so comfortable in it and that's the main thing!

bourbon - great to hear from you and so glad to hear you're enjoying your job. It is really tough for us ladies who want a career as well!

Love to you all xx

Hi everyone, hope you all had good weekends.

AF due for me Wednesday or Thursday this week. It's taking all my will power not to test! But really going to try not to test until Thursday morning. I'm so sick of seeing BFN.

I'm feeling fairly normal although I'm pretty bloated and crampy today. Apart from that nothing very different. My boobs / nipples not sore at all and haven't been all month. They're usually sore for a few days after ovulation so that makes me a bit worried I didn't even ovulate this month! So basically what I'm saying is that I'm trying not to obsess at all. And failing badly!!

Hello, me again! Hope you're all ok.

AF due today or tomorrow. No sign so far. But BFN this morning. I'm 12dpo. No particular symptoms to speak of but feeling quite achy and crampy but that could be AF coming. Will be so gutted if it turns up this month! Fingers crossed!

hey soda sorry for disappearing for so long. Have been meaning to write but not got round to it.

How are you doing? Have you got your BFP or did AF arrive? I really hope it's BFP. Sorry again for not being around.
My AF finally arrived yesterday - much later than usual. Have been so stressed and overwhelmed at work. In a way, it's good that we are not TTC'ing cos that would be add even more stress. 1.5 more cycle before we can go to the Coventry Clinic to get the special test.

Hope everyone is ok.
elle and bourbon thinking of you

Hello!

I'm afraid AF got me. I was 2 days late (I've never been late) and it got me completely by surprise. I was totally gutted as I had convinced myself when I was late that this was the month but not to be.

I'm feeling really down about the whole TTC thing to be honest. It's been 6 months now and while I realise it can take a while it just seems that I'm the only one out of my friends thats taken more than a couple of months.

I know that stress doesn't help so going to really try not to think too much about it. Going to try acupuncture and see if that will help me relax a bit. And then I think we're going to go and get checked out in the new year and just make sure everything is working for us both.

Sorry for the miserable post!!

Is this the clinic for recurrent miscarriages gakay? I hope you get some answers there and can just relax and enjoy the next month without the stress of TTC xx

Hi soda. Am so sorry that AF got you. It does feel very unfair and its really hard to see other people managing so quickly and easily. Yes, stress really doesn't help. My spotting stopped the one month I was most chilled and got pg not that it lasted long. I read many women here have tried acupuncture and found it relaxing so its probably a good idea.

Yes, it is a clinic for recurrent MC. Hopefully it would help us.

On a cheerier note. Went to a wedding show yesterday. Wedding planning is so much fun. When are you having your big wedding party?

Hi gakay, thanks for the message. It's just so frustrating - the more it doesn't happen the more stressed i feel even though the more stressed you are the less likely it is to happen!! Argh!!

Bad news is that my DH is away from today for a week with work which pretty much coincides with my fertile period for this month. In a bizarre way that's taken the pressure off a big this month!

Going to get acupuncture, have a healthy month and gear up for trying next month.

I'm glad you're enjoying wedding planning - it's a lovely distraction! We're having our party in February - it's a bit cheaper then and we didn't want to wait too long from our actual wedding or we worried it would seem a bit daft! We have a venue and caterer booked and have sent save the dates so just need to sort lighting and decorations! We're not going to have flowers or a cake etc because we want to make it more of a party than a wedding. I guess if I'm not pregnant by then the plus side is I can wear my lovely dress again!

What did you decide with dresses in the end?

I really hope this clinic helps you and gives you some answers xx

Hi ladies. Was wondering about you all but lost this post. Still not pregnant. Soda was keeping my fingers crossed you got a honeymoon baby. Middle of fertile middle for me at mo. Had cramping pain (not bad at all) or about 2 days in left side of lower tummy near pevis. Hoping thats ovulation. Have been to see gp and he taken blood but too scared to see him re results...

London good to hear from you. That does sound like ov pain. I hope this could be the month for you. Good luck with your blood results and they are reassuring for you.

soda may be its not a bad thing to take the pressure off for a month so you can relax and be well prepared again.

So we are both going to have our weddings in Feb! I'm thinking about doing my own flowers. Will be going on a flower arranging course as part of my hen do. I've decided to go for the dress that I love but my parents hate. Its really well-fitted. And guess now that I cant TTC again until Dec the earliest even if we get lucky the dress should still fit. I'm doing quite a bit of DIY stuff for the wedding which means I don't wanna do any work in the evenings or weekends.

Hello london good to hear from you. That does sound like it could be ovulation pain - fingers crossed. Hope you get good results from blood tests.

gakay - February wedding buddies! How exciting! I think ours will be quite different - you're lucky you're so creative, I'm not at all creative I'm afraid and want to do as little DIY as possible! And also, with being married already we're really going for an evening party rather than a wedding. I'm glad you went for the dress you love - you're the one who's wearing it! And I'm sure when you're parents see you on the day they'll come round!

Yeah, I'm feeling less pressured this month. We DTD on Monday and Tuesday and then DH went away with work on Wednesday and I got my positive OPK on Thursday. I guess you never know but just accepting I missed it this month. I've got my first acupuncture appointment tomorrow which I'm looking forward to - will let you know how it goes.

Have lovely weekends xx

Hey soda, how did your acupuncture session go? Was it relaxing?
We've pretty much stopped DTD since the last mc. Sometimes I think its more of a chore to him and he's pleased that he's not obliged to do it now that we are not TTC.

My recurrent mc clinic appt is in 2 weeks. Hopefully the consultant there would not object to me going to the Coventry clinic to get the special test done and follow their treatment protocol if the test comes back as abnormal.

Hope you have a lovely weekend

Hey soda, how did the acupuncture go? Hope it was relaxing.
We have almost completely stopped DTD since the last mc. Think its more like a chore to DP and he's secretly pleased that he's not obliged to perform at the moment.

My recurrent mc clinic is in 2 weeks. Hope the consultant there is nice. He's the one who delivered Kate's baby Charlotte. Well, probably will only get to see his junior anyway. I hope they won't object to me going to the Coventry clinic to have my uNK cells checked and would follow their treatment protocol if the results come back as abnormal. This is still a controversial subject and not every consultants would agree...

Anyway, hope you have a lovely weekend.
I'm doing a 24h shift today :( but will have my makeup trial on Sunday and DP agreed to take me out afterwards.

Hi gakay sorry for late reply. How did the make up trial go? Were you happy with it? Hope you went somewhere nice with DH after.

If it's good enough for Kate right?! I hope the clinic is useful and you get the answers you hope for.

I found the acupuncture really interesting. Ive been for 2 sessions now and going to another this weekend. Not especially relaxing at the time (needles!) but I felt good afterwards. She looked at my tongue and said she could tell that I still had some of the pill in my system and I'd been on it a long time etc. Not entirely convinced by it all but willing to give it a go. I've planned some sessions at key points in my next cycle like ovulation and DH is going to go for a session round then too! I'm on CD 27 now so expecting AF in next couple of days. DH was away with work when I got my positive opk so fully expecting AF but I can't help having a tiny bit of hope....

elle - how are you getting on?

The makeup trial went well. I like the makeup artist but thought may be I should ask her to get my eyes a bit more defined. I'm not very good at telling people what I like... have booked my hair trial for end of the month. Hope that would be good. Can't wait! DP took me out for drinks and Sunday lunch afterwards. I accidentally poured 1/2 glass of blood Mary on my trousers which gave me perfect excuse to go shopping and bought a new dress.

Am glad you felt good after acupuncture. I'm intrigued but not 100% convinced yet. Can't really afford trying it unless I'm convinced.

I'm on CD1 today. Feel quite excited as this means I'll be going to the coventry clinic soon and will be starting to TTC again in Dec!

Hi gakay nice to hear from you. Will you have another make up trial before the big day and ask her to concentrate on your eyes? I bet that sort of thing makes it seem really close? I met a potential caterer for our party yesterday and really liked him - he seemed to really understand what we wanted.

So I'm on CD33!! I'm usually 28-29 day cycle. Testing BFN at the moment so not sure what's going on. Wasn't expecting anything this month as we DTD cd12 but then DH was away with work after that but got positive OPK cd14 so you never know.... Most likely my body playing tricks though

Exciting that your date to go to your clinic is nearly here - that's gone quick!

Just back from RMC clinic. The consultant seems nice. He's not suggested anything new apart from 1 more blood test to be done which apparently was missed. He has no strong opinion regarding my plan to go to Coventry for the biopsy or the treatment if recommended. So I guess all good. He suggested I not to TTC for 3 cycles until all the results come back which is fine as that's when I'm planning to try again.

Don't think I'll do another trial cos its expensive. I'll just have to trust that she'll be able to create what I'd like.

I really don't know what to do - met a photographer we like a couple of weeks ago but she's not responded to my emails since. Found her phone number on her Facebook account. Not sure whether to phone or not in case she no longer wants to do our job and I'm stalking her.

Do you think you will go with this caterer or you'll try a few more?

How's your cycle going? Any news?

So glad its Friday already. Its my hen so next Saturday. Can't wait!
Have a lovely weekend x

Hi gakay I think you're on you're hen weekend? I hope you're having an amazing time!

Did you hear from your photographer in the end? I think it's best up try and have someone who gets back to you quickly if you can - you don't want any extra stress!

Yes, we're going with the caterer we met who we really liked and now just sorting out music and lighting.

My last cycle was mad - AF finally arrived on day 38! I was going crazy! I was testing every day sure I was pg but also not believing as DH was away over my peak ovulation tests. Hopefully it was just a random cycle and I'll be back on track from now on. Going to throw everything at it - bought a clearblue fertility monitor and having acupuncture at crucial times in cycle - fingers crossed.

Have you got any results yet from your appointment?

Hi soda. Yes, my hen do was amazing, thank you. The wedding flower workshop was absolutely wonderful and I now feel quite ready to do all the flowers for the wedding with the help of my BMS.

Yes, finally after DP chased her for me. Its all confirmed and we are going to have Pre-wedding shoot in Jan to get used to each other.

Oh yes, lighting... forgot about that...

Just so you know the CBFM can take a couple of cycles to get used to you. So don't worry if its showing strange results.

I haven't got the results - consultant said he will write to me. I'm going to Coventry clinic for more tests this Friday. These 3 cycles have gone by really quickly and I can start TTC in a few weeks!!

Gosh, your last cycle must be a bit of a mind f*. Hope your cycle is back on track now. May be its just your body protesting for your DH being away during the important days. Fx for you this cycle is the one.

Elle hope you have been well

Ah so glad you enjoyed your hen do gakay Great you can do your flowers, that's a big saving. We're not having flowers as we don't want it to be too wedding-y given that we're already married! So just having loads of lights for atmosphere.

Headf is totally right about my last cycle! Yeah, really hope it was just a one-off, I've been so regular since I came off bc. Only annoying thing is I'm fairly sure I'm going to peak this weekend (I'm on CD12 now and I've got my usual backache) and I'm away from tomorrow until Sunday night visiting friends! Such bad timing! Going to try and DTD tonight and tomorrow morning and good for the best!!

Good luck with your tests, hope it goes well and enjoy your weekend xx

On my way back from the Coventry clinic. The staff there were really nice. The biopsy was a bit painful and am glad it's over now. Will get my results in 4 weeks time. We'll be able to try again in just a couple of weeks - am feeling really excited now.

Don't worry soda swimmers can survive a few days so if you managed to DTD last night it should be fine. Hope you have a lovely weekend with your friends xxx

Great news about being able to TTC again soon gakay. I hope you get some answers when your results come back.

I had a great weekend staying with my friends over the weekend and I still haven't peaked yet! Really feel like I'm going to soon but negative OPK and still just showing 'high' on my cbfm. I'm on cd17 now. We're just DTD every day at the moment so we don't miss it! I'm just having a panic that I'm not going to ovulate. Because my last cycle was so long and strange I don't think I ovulated so just hoping I do this time.

Gakay you not far from me! Keep fingers crossed or everyone this month. Im in countdown but suspect its another no! Just want af to come quickly get her out of the way and back to ttc asap. Heres to next month x