Just started to feel period pains ;(

[johnandkymberley]

Hi all, title says it really!!
I'm f*#%!?g gutted!! I really don't think I can deal with it, we have been trying for a month and I know it's stupid to feel like this but I can't help it! I feel like I'm a failure...AND I have no chocolate in the house!!!!
Sorry just needed to let off some upsetness!
Baby dust to all TTC xxxxxxx

[EuroShaggleton]

liss I'm ok. About to embark upon IVF#2. IVF#1 resulted in a shock BFP followed by an mc at 8 weeks. I'm not ready to give up yet, but I hav reached the point where I am looking forward to post-ttc peace, whether that is a llife with children or without.

I love the way this thread has turned into an oldtimers' reunion!

(will, I think the OP is unlikely to be back to apologise, having started another thread (now pulled) specifically to have a pop at the lovely FOD.)

[EuroShaggleton]

And yes, eurochick was me!

[HesterShaw]

having started another thread (now pulled) specifically to have a pop at the lovely FOD.)


....which was really really really classy and mature of her.


Anyway.

[tametortie]

Hello lissie!! Remember me? I was called Ammy/mummy2olivia.

Glad to see you have found some peace beyond TTC.

I am still plodding along, just had my 3rd icsi cycle. Not sure of result yet...

[lissieloo]

Euro, I'm sorry about your mc, its horrible. I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you. I, too, love that this is a reunion, although its sad that so many of my old comrades are still here.

And at the op starting a thread to have a go at FOD, that's awful!

Ammy/tametortie, I remember you. Whens your period due?

Buggerlugs, me old mukker. When do you think you will start?

Yep, IF can affect anyone. It doesn't matter how much preparation you undertake, or what you do. Its heartbreaking and infuriating. It turns rational, intelligent women into bitter, irrational harpies. God, its so bloody unfair

[tametortie]

yep, I am irrational. Totally. Official clinic test day is Friday.

[lissieloo]

You must be so nervous!

I shall keep everything crossed and try to keep an eye out for the result. How do you feel?

[tametortie]

Well, in all honesty I have done a couple of tests and they are faintly positive. BUT, and i know you will relate to this, i dont feel happy. I feel numb. And i dont trust tests anymore. I will trust being in labour and delivering a baby. But infertility robs you of excitement and happiness and i just dont believe that there is a happy ending anymore. So when i have a 20 week scan under my belt and i feel happy to shop for pushchairs then i will believe the tests. Till then, im reserving any celebrations!!!

[willitbe]

tametortie - really you should know never to confess to early testing with Lissie she does not approve (hehehe!). At the same time, I can fully understand just taking one day at a time, and the numbness setting in, just be kind to yourself and keep up the taking one day at a time. There are plenty of mn buddies who will handhold over the next few days/weeks. (BTW, I had a different name previously like yourself, and was on other conception threads with you years ago.)

big wave to Duchesse and Euro too. (Duchesse, you would know me by a different name too, back from buddy days)

lovely to see everyone again.

[lissieloo]

I can completely relate to all that. All that innocence and excitement, and simple joy that comes from deciding to create a child, it dies. A version of yourself dies. When I was first pg with ds I had a lot of bleeding, and had a scan at what I thought would be 7 weeks, but there was a 5w embryo. I didn't even consider anything was wrong. Its so different to the woman who calmly told the mw not to bother with a scan.

However, bfps, no matter how faint, are the first step. One day at a time, my lovely!

[lissieloo]

Willitbe, I still have the stats lying around somewhere, ready to whip out at a moments notice

[OrangeLily]

Iv only been TTC for 7 months so can't get in to an old timers reunion but as for the implant....

I went in it because if all the shit they tell you about immediately returning fertility, otherwise I would have used barrier methods.

My last cycle which finished on Thursday was 53 days. Since August iv had a 30, few 40, few 50 and a 70 something cycles.

Doctors tomorrow as they are starting to investigate.

[tametortie]

I must say my friend had the implant and also bought into the fast returning fertility. She hasn't had a period since and has suddenly stopped ovulating I think anything with hormones involved is a very individual thing- affects some more than others...


I am taking it one day at a time. Still wont believe any pregnancy test till the contractions are 2 minutes apart

[tametortie]

Willitbe, what was your name???

[lissieloo]

That's what I'd heard from friends, and the nurse had said to me. Its why I went for the coil, just in case we do decide to have one last shot.

Orangelily, I hope you get some answers from the doctors, 7m is still tough!

Tame, ikwym. Every step is a miracle.

[willitbe]

tametortie - have pm'd you my old name!

[OrangeLily]

Thank-you. Starting to get a bit bummed out but I've got a lovely doctor who is a young, female and she seems to really understand. She sent me straight to hospital for PCOS scan which found nothing and we'll talk about blood tests tomorrow.

The good thing about being on here is someone always knows how you feel....

......well that is until some numpty comes along and flings insensitive crap about.

[willitbe]

Special message for johnandkimberly, incase she comes back here again:
You said on another thread that "My AF were so irregular before the implant but then in he first 2 years of the implant I had nothing but in this last year it's all been settling down and coming on time so I'm hoping this will continue after the implant is removed!". I think that you should be aware that the implant loses its effect very quickly, and if you had pre-exsisting fertility issues (irregular cycles !) then these would be seen to return fairly quickly, and so it might be worth bearing this in mind when saying that "my period is due.....", as if your cycle was irregular previously then it will probrably be the same again now. OPK's are not able to be used in situations where fertility is affected by PCOS for instance, so you might not have ovulated when you thought you might have done.

Out of interest: this is a link to Netmums and another site with experiences of AF going AWOL after the implanon removal, so I hope that reassures you johnankimberley that you are not alone. Also it might possibly be worth looking into PCOS as a possible cause for your irregular cycles?

[PearlyWhites]

A month really

[HadALittleFaithBaby]

Luffly to see you lissie :) so glad you're happy.

[lissieloo]

Buggerlugs, so you're looking at a february start? Now remember, just relaaaaax hope that the clomid works though, hell, I just hope it happens full stop!

We are still none the wiser. I've been diagnosed with fibromyalgia, teitzes and borderline osteoporosis, so its possible that its involved somehow. Dh and I were talking about it last night and I don't know how we kept going, I really don't!

Faith, my darlin' how are you? Had that baby yet? Or do you have a while to go? on a lot of drugs, memory aint what it was

[HadALittleFaithBaby]

Yes baby born 14th April. Currently refusing to sleep in Moses basket! Little girl called Abigail. Bit dinky at 5lb 4oz but growing rapidly now :)

[lissieloo]

Ohhhhh, how wonderful! Congratulations, and what a beautiful name!