Just over 18 years ago, when I was in early labour with my wonderful DS I posted on Mumsnet until I went to the hospital (have name changed since then but was a regular poster). I had lots of encouraging posts from lovely mumsnetters and it was so helpful.
Now my DS is in ICU in a critical condition. I have been up nearly all night. My heart is breaking and I have never known grief like this. DS has been suffering from anxiety and depression and has been on meds over the last 7 weeks and having therapy and visits from the Adult Mental Health service but yesterday evening he decided he couldn't face it anymore.
He is such a sweet boy who always thinks of others. We have a great family and he has been talking to his older and younger sister. He has been talking to both me and DH and we have done everything we can to help him and keep him safe. But it hasn't worked.
I want to understand why this has happened and answers and reassurance that he is going to pull through but it is not looking that good. I can't cope. I feel like a shell and have never cried so much or been sick and to the toilet so much. I can't sleep.
Please be kind. I am not feeling that strong at the moment.
Bereavement
Need A Hand Hold - DS18 in ICU **Trigger warning**
JungleZgok · 26/05/2022 05:44
vivariumvivariumsvivaria · 26/05/2022 17:45
I am glad that MN was here to hold your hand when you brought him into the world and that there is a legion of us holding your hand while you endure your anguish.
I'm very sorry that you have this need.
chocaholic73 · 27/05/2022 09:45
I'm so sorry OP. There are simply no words but I think it's safe to say you are in the thoughts of many people today. On a practical note, you mentioning your DD insisting on continuing to sit her GCSEs while this is going on - make sure you ask the school about submitting special circumstances information to the exam board for her.
runnerblade95 · 27/05/2022 14:54
@Dillidilly @vivariumvivariumsvivaria
I am glad that MN was here to hold your hand when you brought him into the world and that there is a legion of us holding your hand while you endure your anguish.
Isn’t it just? Just beautiful ❤️
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