In memory of our lovely Aillidh

[expatinscotland]

At 11.25 last night, our beautiful, 9-year-old daughter died of complications from treatment for acute myeloid leukaemia, she went into respiratory failure after contracting human metapneumo virus following conditioning chemotherapy for stem cell transplant.

For many days, she lingered on a ventilator. But last night, she developed a pneumothorax and rapidly deteriorated.

She died within seconds of the ventilator being taken off.

I can't believe she's gone, or how broken her long body looked.

flower thread for Cat.

Continuing to pray for you Expat.

thinking of you all, especially yesterday xxxxxx

Still thinking of you all x

Rest in great and lasting peace, Ailidh. We won't forget you.

Oh my. I've read your posts for years expat and always been moved by your honesty, dignity and utter, fearless love for your children. I am so, so sorry for your loss.

Love to you all x

I'm still praying too. Sending all my love...

Another one here continuing to pray for you

Just to say you are still in my thoughts.

still in our thoughts xxxxx

Still sending love and thoughts too you all x

I cannot believe she died, and the last 60 days of her life will haunt me till I die.

Oh love :(

So sorry for the death of your beautiful little treasure. I cannot imagine the pain you must be feeling. Sleep well Ailidh.

You did your absolute best for her that you could do.

Love you lots x

Still thinking of you expat. Still praying for you.

think of you every day expat

sending all possible love and best wishes xxx

expat.

I fervently hope that in time her last 60 days will not haunt you. She was still with you in those 60 days and although the quality of her life was greatly reduced and you were all suffering, she was present. And she would have many moments of great joy and happiness amongst it all.

, thinking of you Expat x

No they wont expat. They will fill your thoughts just now to the point that you think they will consume you. But you are still in shcok and traumised by what you have all been through. I have been there and know how truly awful it is. things too terrible to write here.

But over the next weeks and months you will be able to remember more of Aillidhs life, not her death. As you look at photos and videos of her and talk about her with A and the kids, you will force yourself to remember the happy times, the years of happiness not the months of illness. You WILL do this. Because the children deserve to rememberher well and whole, bursting with life and energy. The real Aillidh.

You can do this. Look how you fought for her life. Now you will fight to get through this.

Oh Expat.

You, your family and friends and the medical team did all that you could to help Aillidh through those 60 days, and all the others since that awful diagnosis was made.

I do hope that those days don't haunt you forever. Aillidh is a very lucky girl to have you as her Mum.

X x

Aillidh knew you loved her for every second of those 60 days.

I can only hope the good memories out weigh the bad in time.

My heart and thoughts are with you expat, xx