In memory of our lovely Aillidh

[expatinscotland]

At 11.25 last night, our beautiful, 9-year-old daughter died of complications from treatment for acute myeloid leukaemia, she went into respiratory failure after contracting human metapneumo virus following conditioning chemotherapy for stem cell transplant.

For many days, she lingered on a ventilator. But last night, she developed a pneumothorax and rapidly deteriorated.

She died within seconds of the ventilator being taken off.

I can't believe she's gone, or how broken her long body looked.

I think Kristina is right. You will remember all of her life for all of yours. 60 days can't wipe out more than 9 years of loving memories and if anybody has the guts to fight to remember the good you do. You won't feel it now but your bravery has astounded us. Your faith and your sheer grit is going to keep you going.

Kristina that was a beautiful message.

You will remember those 60 days love but you will remember the 9 years of happiness you shared.
Thoughts and love to your family exoat x

What Kristina and Northern said. No, you'll never forget those last 60 days - but I'm sure that in time the 60 days won't crowd out the other memories, the memories of the real Aillidh. I so hope that there will be a time when a memory of her will flash into your mind or you'll see her in your other children or in yourself or your DH, and you'll be able to smile.

I can't begin to imagine what you're going through and everything I want to say sounds like a platitude. I'm just so sorry.

Sending you strength. Xxx

hugs expat

Wishing you peace and strength as you work through the trauma, shock and grief of what you've all been through.

It takes time, but you will come to terms with her passing and I'm sure will have many comforting memories of Aillidh.

What comes through so clearly is how very loved and valued she was and that is more than many children in the world experience, sadly. The quality of her life while she was with you is perhaps what you will dwell on eventually, after you process what must be some very difficult emotions.

Sending love and strength xxx

Oh I just feel so angry for you and for her. I think of her, and you, often.

Oh expat .

I wish there was something to say to ease the awful hurt. I wish, we all wish......what you wish for.

But in the desolate absence of that possibility, what KristinaM and NorthernLurker say sounds like sense. I hope you can hang onto the hope behind their words.

Not a day goes past without I think and pray over you expat. Aillidh will be with you always. You fought as you needed to fight.

sending you lots of love expat xxx

Expat, never has a Mother fought more for her child than you did. Your beautiful dd was so lucky to have you, please never forget that.

There is a time under the sun for everything and we will mourn with you and weep with you and pray for you and yours.

Expat I'm so so sorry you've lost your darling Aillidh. I dearly hoped I'd get the call from the bone marrow people - my family are south American and I had some crazy dream I'd be the one to be a perfect match. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

Oh Expat, my heart aches for you & your pain. It is every parent's worst nightmare to lose a child. You fought so hard for Aillidh. I hope that you'll be able to remember her whole life and not just the end of it. Lighting a candle for you & your family tonight.

I'm sure you are still almost living through those last 60 days and the utter trauma of it all. I think and hope that what Kristina said is true though. I'm so sorry.

Still sending love to you all. X

We still light a candle for you and Aillidh every night here. I'm sure Aillidh is safe with God but we will continue to light it for you and your family.

X

Expat, No words to say,this has all been so sad,but you were there fighting Aiilidh's corner every inch of the way.You could not of done anymore.I hope you will find comfort from the fact that all of mumsnet are thinking of you , and sending you love and strength to help you through now and the coming weeks and months.x

Miss you, girl. Miss you so much.

xxxxxx

X expat

Much love and thoughts being sent to you all.
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