Hey so this sounds really silly as I know the chances of seeing one of my good friends on my birthday in a couple of weeks was really slim as she lives in a different country. For these past couple of months I hoped and had it in my head that she would likely be here as I had this feeling she would.
bit of backstory. I met her online 2 years ago. This past several months we’ve grown so close. We’ve just clicked. It’s that type of friendship where you feel like the other person is like a twin spirit and is part of you and when they’re not there especially at special occasions you feel like something is missing and feel incomplete. I remember going on a night out and all I could think of is that she should be here. We feel like we can tell each other anything and everything. She’s even said to me that there’s things she’s told me that she would be uncomfortable telling others which I’m flattered by. We have similar interests and views on life. She’s like this amazing kind hearted stunningly beautiful angel that has came into my life and I wish more than ever we lived close by. If we did I know for a fact we’d see each other all the time.
Just recently she’s been going through a hard time with a loved one not being well so I haven’t heard from her as much but we still talk everyday as we both like and comment on each others content on social media. I feel bad that she’s having to cope with dealing with that but that is what has set it in stone that she won’t be coming to visit. I really had it in my head that she’d be here. I’m having a big birthday night out with a lot of my friends and I’m really looking forward to it. Now it won’t feel the same without her or at least someone similar. I know I sound delusional and dumb right now but I imagined getting ready together getting our makeup on. A girly pamper night the night before (I had it in my head that would be the night she would arrive), dancing together to our favourite songs particularly one I had in my head (the one my two cousins who are sisters danced to at one of their birthdays and I’m envious of how close they are). I know I’ll still have a good time with my other friends and my husband. I’m grateful they will be there but I’ll be missing her unless she or someone similar is there.
WTF is wrong with me? I’m a grown woman married with kids why am I getting on like a teen?