Its that time of year again.
Its Billie's birthday tomorrow. She would be 20.
TWENTY.
She would be grown up and at uni and working and have a boyfriend that I could terrify.
But she is not is she? She is dead and she will never get past 14.
So I can let off her ballons with her little brothers. One who talks about her all the time and two who never met her.
I can buy a cake with butterflies on it and we can eat it and I will think about her.
I can expect my family not to send a card or call me.
Then the day after I can start the countdown till her anniversary in April.
So please, please help stop this happening to someone else's child or loved one.
I know I do this twice a year and its getting boring but PLEASE
sign up to give blood
sign up to give bone marrow
give a little money to Clic or TCT or anyone you want to.
Please do something. Telling others what they can do is just as useful and giving a pint of blood because I know not all of us can.
This year is particularly important because last time I went to give blood (December) they told me I couldnt give any for at least 12 months.
I cant help, I have let her down so I need people to help give those pints that I cant.
I have to get through tomorrow. I really dont want to.