It’s my birthday tomorrow and usually have had a week of “what do you want, what do you want to do”. To which I reply it would be nice to not have to pic one present and get a surprise. Nothing. It’s not a big birthday and we’re not surprise party people. I just want a card and present and maybe to not cook dinner or some flowers and a card from the kid, homemade would be great.
But here’s the thing, I’m actually hoping that it will get to my birthday morning or after work and he’ll then remember when it’s too late to buy a card and flowers from the supermarket on the way home from work. Things have been so bad that I kind of want him to keep forgetting so it’s something concrete to show me that he has stopped loving me and checked out the relationship and I need to be on my own. Or at least plan to leave in a few years.
So tomorrow I know I’ll get a card from kid, they do at nursery for parents birthdays, and I’m going to take the afternoon off work and get kid from nursery and we’re going to go the zoo. I’ve ordered myself some flowers and some posh shampoo I’ve been looking at and I’ll put a happy birthday banner up for myself. And fuck it if I’m making dinner.
but I think he’ll remember tonight in time to Amazon something. Although I’m still waiting for the Mother’s Day present he apparently ordered me.
But he’s also the type tomorrow when I say it’s m.my birthday to complain I didnt remind him and then he all sad and it’s actually my job to cheer him up when he’d have forgotten my birthday!!