Having such little money is not sustainable

[sadsomeone]

I'm a regular poster but have name changed for this post.

Does anyone else feel it is not sustainable to have such little money? We are literally getting by and no more. I am a single mum, work full time for not much more then minimum wage with 2DC (one of which has complex disabilities). This month I have not been able to pay my council tax, my sky tv (most basic tv and internet) has been cut off and I can only have the heating on for an hour a day.

Tonight I have been looking for second jobs that are wfh in the evenings but can't seem to find anything. I'm feeling so desperate about Christmas and no one seems to understand. My mum said she couldn't lend me any money (even though she has plenty) whilst I literally do not have enough money for food some days. I have £30 to last me until Friday and that will get me enough petrol to work and do the school runs and that's it.

I know there are people worse off then me but I just feel so miserable and like I'm failing at life. My daughter needs a new pair of shoes that I can't even afford to buy. I go out with my mum most weeks and she sees I can't afford to buy much whilst she piles her trolley high with luxuries and I feel like crying most days. Life is just so unfair sometimes.

Please consider contacting a food bank - they don't all need referrals. I just googled food bank and the town I live in and emailed them directly. I have a decent job (but a massive private rent) and never thought I'd be in this situation - I used to buy extra items and donate only a few months ago. They have been so lovely and I've eaten really well. Receiving food from the food bank means that I can put my heating on and not worry as much. I also use the 'Olio' app. People collect from supermarkets at the end of the day and then give the food away for free. It's brilliant and also saves the waste food going into landfill.