Urgent need of a hand hold / unMN hug

[MumofSpud]

I know there may be more specific sites to put this thread but I can't bring myself to go there
DH is in hospital with Leukaemia- and for the past few weeks has had a chest infection
Now he has 2 chest infections
I have been visiting x2 a day but not since Thursday as I got Covid (for the first time)
The Macmillan nurse has just rung asking me to do a test as the Dr wants to have an conversation' and it might be easier if I am there
Of course I am still testing positive
I tried to get details out of her but all she would say is that it is a serious conversation
Dr is due to ring me soon
I feel sick with nerves and so guilty that I am not there
He is 49
I really need a hand hold

😭 how sad. I hope it was peaceful for you all. It sounds as if, like you said, he went on his terms.
thinking of you all

What a rollercoaster of a week for you all. I'm so so sorry for you loss.

I am so sorry.

I'm so so sorry to hear your news, and sending big hugs to you all. xxxx

So very sorry.

I am so sorry for your loss. Sending strength and love to you and your family x

I'm so very sorry, OP. Sending you love and strength.

I’m so sorry for your loss 💐

Oh, I am so very, very sorry for your loss. I am so glad you were with him. Sending you all love xxx

My thoughts are with you and your family. So sorry x💔

I am so so sorry to read this. Sending my thoughts to you and your family

I’m so sorry to read your update OP, so so sorry. Thinking of you and your family x

I am very sorry for your loss.

@MumofSpud I am so sorry to read this. My own wonderful husband died two years ago and it was a pain beyond describing. Please know that the agony you're feeling now will ease, in time. It will become easier to carry. You won't love him any less, or miss him any less, but you will learn to live alongside your grief and even find joy and happiness again. The two can coexist in a way you won't be able to understand now, but I promise it will happen.

I don't know your circumstances but if you're under 51, please come and join us at Widowed and Young when you feel ready. Someone on MN recommended it to me and it has been such a lifeline. You will find an understanding ear at any time of the day or night on the Facebook group and sometimes that's what you will need more than anything.

Sending love to you and your DS, and holding your lovely husband in my heart.

I am so sorry for your loss.
May your lovely husband find the rest and peace he needed. Wishing you and your children and your extended family all the strength in the world to get through these next few hours, days, weeks and months.

Look after yourselves and give your kids a huge hug. 💔

So sorry to hear of your loss OP. Such devastating news, but hopefully knowing you were there with him brings you some comfort, as I'm sure it did him. Thinking about you and your family xx

I am so sorry xx

Very glad you got to be there, although I know this is small consolation now.
💐

I am so sorry for your loss OP xx

I'm so sorry op. Huge hugs. Thinking of you and your family.

I’m so sorry for your loss OP💐

I’m so sorry for your loss xx

I am so sorry for your loss 💔

I’m so very sorry, I’m thinking of you and your family.

I am so sorry for your loss. Sending love.