I’ve suffered from anorexia for 35 years

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I’m a 50 year old mother of 2 boys and I can’t remember a time when I wasn’t either starving myself, purging, or obsessed with my weight and food. The only time I was ever anything like overweight was in my youth, but looking back at photos, I was barely even chubby. I’m now hovering around 7 and a half stone and I’m 5’1”. I never feel thin or happy with my weight, despite knowing rationally that I am thin.
I will leave the rest of it to your questions. I’m not sensitive about it, so ask anything!

I'm sorry about losing your brother and his struggles too. Hope not too insensitive but do you know is it common for siblings to have this? Would you say there was something in your upbringing that caused it?

I read before that a lot of female saints, were quite extreme martyrs, exhibited signs of disordered eating, obsessive devotion etc, with a suggestion they might have been ND.

The thread compared gretta thurnerg to the middle aged saints, disordered eating, obsessive, compulsive.

Do you think there is a martyr/ religious element to it.

Are you quietly praised for your control and mastery over your body?

Have you ever considered using hypnotherapy? Are there any hypnotherists around who you think could help?

Only just seen this! And I’m the absolute opposite of any of those people. I am self sacrificing but not for self serving reasons or praise.