Professor White and the line dancing surfers eat cold turkey

[serialtester]

Welcome to the surfboard!

costa well done for fessing up (and rationing yourself!)
Back on the board tomorrow

Oh dear, Cleaning Halls Soothers Blackcurrant flavour seem to be doing the trick this end. You'll be alright.

Honestly just a little dabble! Enough for me to spew drivel and enough love and empathy for you all!
So I will retire and be in touch with the blues from hell tomorrow.
Well done you lot and Hoping for a pleasant and 'normal' Saturday night for the rest of you.

Where the fuck is fucking dh with my mother fucking wine

I'm literally pacing here.

Sorry about that little outburst

It's ok to have a little whine Cleaning

I'm off to sleep, will see you at the surf squad meeting in the morning lovely people.

Me too. I'm such a lightweight zzzzzzz

oh 'eck, didn't mean to worry you abt dentists.

The film was great and there's a Part 2 - woot! Found a tin of beer at the back of the fridge too when looking for something to eat as whatever I took out the freezer (Yep, a huge unknown) isn't gonna defrost before tomorrow.

Sleep well all. oh, thought it said beer!

Overboard surfers....sorry! Sleep tight

Well done you lovely people!
So stayed at a little dabble, despite all the other party goers!
Brownie points for me, I hope.
Good evening and a happy Sunday morning to you all, and me I hope!
Of to bed with a large cup of tea and earplugs to the house music downstairs!!
Stay a float the surfboard, I'm thinking hunky half naked Gerald butler helping me climb aboard!

You chaps who are in the waters - the arm bands will be there tomorrow.

Well the inevitable happened. I think I should leave this thread. You're all doing so well and I just don't think I'm in the right mind set quite yet.

Morning all! Luckily ds has returned to being a little darling again and calm is restored.

Witty it's totally up to you re staying on the thread. Tbh I lurked for a while before actually joining. I totally agree that your mindset has to be right. I'm no saint but the determination is sometimes well hidden there somewhere

Anyway, I've polished the surfboard and added a granite fin-type feature to make it stand out Happy Sunday!

witty something in you wants to change so stick around or come back when you're ready to fight this

Morning everyone

Hope we're all ok and having a relaxed Sunday.

flat? there's no point going on a guilt trip this morning. Shit happens! You've made amazing progress and you'll get there, I know you will.

Morning. Hope everyone is having a nice Sunday.

Morning,

Well done costa. Brownie points awarded. It should give you confidence to know you control it rather than the other way round.

Flat - hope you are not beating yourself up. Like lost says, shit happens. There is a future you who can live without taking this, so don't worry - you will find her. So will witty.

This road has bumps in it, and a few big hills. (Don't think about the white lines down the middle!).

Have to see dB later. I have a headache already

Lol at white lines user.. love that tune

How are you doing flat?

Good luck, Cleaning come on here to vent later if you need to.

Not good, big one last night, feel dreadful this morning, so sick of this taking over my life. Feel really depressed.......

How did you get it? From a different guy or the same one? I've deleted all numbers but I know that dh has kept one. It's lunchtime and it's on my mind because I know what's coming this afternoon. I need to go and live on Pluto.

Don't get depressed, you've made definite progress 💪

Thanks for the good luck lost... it's probably going to be very choppy indeed later for me. I'm ok blocking out cravings in general but if something genuinely triggers me I struggle a lot. Like last night for example I was able to distract myself but I have an awful habit of replaying family comments in my head ad infinitum It's the one thing that always gets me, feeling like I'm a big disappointment because I only produced one dgc. Oh ffs

After all the effort of deleting dealer, husband called a friend and got another number. I feel I am fighting a losing battle here.

Cleaning am so impressed with your strength and determination, I hope meeting with DB is ok for you

Eeek I'm not impressed with myself but thank you all the same. In many ways it's not a losing battle because you are at least trying to fight it. Plenty out there aren't. They say the biggest step is acknowledgment and you've done that 🖒

I hope that post made sense and thank you. I'll try not to stab him at dinner.

It's so awful that I'm already plotting a route home via a friend who regularly has stuff in

Big hug for you ((flat))

Be gentle with yourself. Remember don't assess the situation too much on a dreadful come down. Things look a whole lot worse than they actually are when you're looking through 'dark' glasses.

Cutting off contact with a dealer is one strategy, but there are loads of others too. We'll get there. Like Cleaning says you've acknowledged it and want to change and that's what will make you keep fighting.

It's fucking hard and tiring I know. Rest today, then back on your board sweet.