Cold turkey- help me when I'm tempted

[rainbowdash17]

I'm about to go cold turkey from cocaine.
It's time to! Definitely
My weak points are when I'm tempted to buy some (usually evenings)

Can I message on here when I'm tempted for a pep talk on why I shouldn't & reassurance that it's ok?
I think it would really help me

Do you reckon we can do this?

Nope absolutely not a typo. He regularly turned up looking pale and sweating profusely and just having that stare of paranoia about him. Wouldn't want to sit down and would pace around. Some of what he'd had was also pure.

He still lived with his parents and earns an absolute fortune so had loads of spare cash. His mum knows what he gets up to and keeps track of his bank and credit card accounts.

He's just moved into his own home and whilst we believe he has cut down as now has all his bills to pay and we don't see him much he was messaging my dh to go to his Thursday night repeatedly. Even though he knows we wouldn't do anything in the week.

He'd sit up in his room at his parents taking it. His parents are very wealthy and wanted him to go to rehab but he agreed to the Cocaine anonymous classes instead. They have no idea how bad he actually was/(is?)

He was abused by a neighbour for years and that's why he takes stuff so it worries me him being alone in that big house.

We have no excuse for taking it. My dh just says he gets bored and enjoys getting wrecked.

I'm your DH! Boredom and enjoying getting wrecked are my motivation.

It's funny though how you start off doing it as a social thing and then very quickly find yourself doing it alone because you don't want people coming between you and it. Or maybe that's just me.

No me too serial, last weekend was just me, 2grams, cigarettes and a bottle of whisky.

Flat, sounds heavenly! What is it about whisky and coke though? I never want it at any other time. Have surfboard, arm bands, rubber ring and snorkel this evening. I am struggling.

Sending you a raft Serial!

All this talk of whisky has my mind wandering but I wouldn't say struggling as such. Talk of flat having 2 to herself has really got my thoughts rolling too. I normally just share 1 with dh!

He drinks his whisky neat when he's on it

I swig it out the bottle! Classy!

Am smoking like a lunatic this evening. It helps, might have a bath after dinner too. Am definitely NOT leaving the house tonight.

If anyone offered me a line tonight I'd go full Dyson!

Mmm my friends coke, cigarettes and whiskey..stop it flat

Sorry you're struggling, serial that was me last night, I couldn't get my mind off it. Sort of hallucinating lines!
And doing that stupid argument in your head trying to justify it.

Sometimes I think getting it out of your system is the easy bit, it's getting it out of my head that I can't seem to do. I feel like I've fucked up my brain sequences or something so that's my default setting. (This is not scientific)

Keep surfing, riding it out, serial Last night it seemed to work to really force myself not to think about it. I counted backwards from 100 at one point
And of course the old faithful, a bath.

Fuck! So does he! I just told him about you guys and whisky and he gave a wry smile no no no

I need to go and buy some cigs quick smart

We'll have no wry smiles and reminiscing cleaning! Hopefully nicotine will see you through.

It's not helping that our family reunion is not going to plan tonight. Fuuuuuuuuuck

I doubt I can even get any around here anyway. Cigs it is

Gawd, you don't want to be buzzed off your tits at a family reunion

No as in I want to actually leave pmsl 😂 Buzzed off my tits ha ha! No way could I do it here, I noticed this weak how low my tolerance is now. I guess that is a good thing though. Back in the day 1g used to see us both through the whole weekend but that very soon changed

Buy some fags Clean!! Buy them now! I'm having some wine to try and chill out a bit. But OH MY GOD I WANT A LINE! Feels better to let it out!!

Sorry guys!! I shouldn't have said anything about the whisky! I have it neat too and out of the bottle by the end of the evening when I am too fucked to be able to pour into a glass.Just to remind you (and me) I felt horrific the next morning, SO depressed and full of self loathing. I don't normally do that much in one sitting by the way (she says pathetically ).

Lostit, cocaine DOES rewire your brain apparently. Something about finding it difficult to experience pleasure from other things and having very little ability to delay gratification, hence the tunnel vision and thinking we are invincible and won't get a comedown this time. There has been compelling evidence that an amino acid called NAC if taken over a month can repair some of that damage and help significantly with cravings. I have been taking it for just over a week and not noticed a difference, but will let you all know.

My brother is getting right on my tits. I think I'd do a line in front of the lot of them the mood I'm in.

Cunty atmosphere. I'm very disappointed. Was genuinely looking forward to tonight. Am sober so going to drive around and look for a dealer cigs

Can we ban any further further talk of whisky? Pleeeeeeease?

I can see wraps of coke and bottles of famous grouse dancing before my eyes whilst I'm trying to find my car key loool

Cleaning SO sorry!! Oh god I do love you all!! And I really can't help going to that fantasy meet up in my head!!

What a meet up it would be! Am watching trainspotting - that's gonna help!

It's ok!

The meet-up would have to be at mine. On the mother fucking granite 😂😂😂

Oh serial you have balls (ovaries) of steal!! You were offered a line yesterday and you said NO. I have never said no to an offer of a line.