my mother...again

[Chyla]

She and her internet 'boyfriend' chat from 8pm to 10:30 everynight which is what my mother and I agreed, then I go on at 10:30 for an hour or so but tonight as like a few nights ago, he is able to stay on longer, so she says she is staying on longer which will prob be past when I go to bed. This is so unfair to change the arrangements and she thinks it is fair.

i think you need to have something to focus/work towards, i have been in your shoes in a way and it is not nice and everyday for me was a struggle and sometimes it still is but you need something/someone who will stick by you, do you have a friend who could be like your coach (bit like at AA) who is always there for you when you need someone to talk, or just to reassure you.

I have a goal to reach by september and that is to get into uni and get a part time job to pay the fees too. I already have an interview for a job on monday so that is part way to the goal. I am going to concentrate on that.

I have no friends. When I worked down south I lost touch with all apart from 2. One moved away but I still speak on the phone with him and the other lives locally but she isnt a good listener and won't give advice.

if you want to chat at anytime cat me now go get yourself some help

night chyla

i still advice you go to the hospital - but only you can make that choice.

love huggy

Hi, I'm still here this morning. I really want to call the doctors for an appointment to talk about my depression but I dont know what to say when I get in there.

just go and see him! it will all come out when you get there!