We have 5 children 2 are mine from previous and the other 3 are ours together. I had my youngest when I was 40 I am now 42. I am.unable to go on pill and dr said if I get sterilised maybe difficult lifting my toddler and my husband will have take some days off work to help if possible. My husband said he can't take time off but for years refuses to have snip. I have given birth to 5 kids. He saw me suffer a miscarriage. My last birth wasnt the best as I didn't stop bleeding. I thought he may think to himself it's his turn. He keeps moaning that we don't have sex. I'm terrified of falling pregnant. He told few months ago several times he doesn't fancy me because how can he find me attractive if we don't have sex. He won't wear condoms as says passion killer. This and his temper over the years has damaged our relationship ( see previous post) . My 15 year old son said " mum I think you are in abusive relationship" my husband can't see it. I checked his texts when it got so bad to see what his take was on us. He told friends I push the wrong buttons. His friends actually told him he will lose his family if he doesn't sort it out. I feel stuck