I am sorry for those dealing with loss right now. It doesn't make it easier,but without loss there would be no life. That's the deal, it's heartbraking, and we have to try to find ways to carry on and find joy.
So many of us- myself included carry pain and trauma. It's easy to bundle it up and consign it to a dark corner in our psyche, but it will manifest somehow- it may turn up as anxiety, depression, poor self esteem, insomnia. It's a bit like Whacka Mole. It is hard to unpack our trauma, and I think counselling or therapy can really help. Uncomfortable feelings come with a message and we need to pay attention, become curious, and give the feeling room to explain itself.
I love all weathers-but I know tihngs are extreme right now. We have 29 degrees here, I know parts of the UK are hotter than that. I find a hot summer with such bright light very exposing, makes me feel more vulnerable somehow. The lower light of Autumn doesn't mind that my windows need cleaning or my legs shaving. Physically we are all a bit more on show, and many of us not very body confident.
Having said that I was at yoga this morning, it felt blissful in the studio, the aircon was set to 18 degrees, it was so refreshing.
I am baking rhubarb muffins this afternoon. I have always considered myself as a poor baker. Cooking I feel fairly competent,but cakes have always turned out wrong. Thanks to Google AI I have been trying out different recipes for muffins, and have made a few batches recently which have turned out really well. So far I have made chocolate miuffins, lemon muffins, cherry muffins. I have a large bag of frozen rhubarb in the freezer which won't stop looking at me, so Rhubarb Muffins it is- I'll bring round a plateful later, if someone could sort out some iced drinks!