Oh this doesn't look good. :(

[Weaselicious]

Five weeks today and spent all of last night awake with stomach cramps and bleeding. Clots and everything. Went to see lovely doc at local cottage hosp at 4am have GP appt this morning and scan booked in for Tuesday at 9 but I don't think there's much hope.

Was super surprised to be pregnant as thought it would be v diff for DH and I and it feels very cruel to have the rug pulled like this only 9 days after we found out.

Feel like it's a club I'm not allowed to join after all.

[MildredH]

Ok, am back..

Yes, had a laparoscopy & dye test in January.. Was really fine. Takes longer to get over the anaesthetic than the lap itself.

I had one small (1-2cm) cut in belly button and another one same size at line where top of your knickers would be.

They'll pump co2 into your abdomen to give them a better view.

Afterwards, felt mildly tender but nothing that paracetamol didn't sort. Biggest issue is feeling bloated and slight shoulder pains from the gas. Light bleeding ( but also had hysteroscopy- which I guess you may also have). Had to wear a thin pad for about 5 days..

Only time I felt real pain was waking up in recovery- told nurse it hurt and within 30 seconds was given IV morphine which was warming and lovely like necking a large glass of red!

Not really sure what else.. I'll keep an eye on my phone this eve so just let me know if I've missed anything.

Really hope you're ok.. Not much change here. Occasional browny red tiny spotting. Still feel sick as a pig but have had surprise relief from those travel sick bands! ( and I'm bloody cynical!). Had to take them off for an hour just to check it hadn't just gone away!

[Weaselicious]

Dreadful signal here so will be quick - you've really calmed me down thanks so much. Came to A&E last night has had some (mild and unspecified) abdom pain and they just can't see what's going on, think its a v small part of the pregnancy left hence the steady HCG levels. So am in surgery tomorrow. Alex (DH) has only just left after me sending him home for food and sleep and have been feeling v weepy. You've helped make me feel an awful lot better, thank you.

Glad to hear you're still feeling sick :) will let you know how it all goes x

[MildredH]

Glad to have helped. I know mine was a different scenario but honestly, honestly don't fret about the procedure itself.. I talk as someone who has both had one and also assisted in theatre in lots previously as a junior doctor on my gynae rotation.

I know it's easy to say but at least it should give you answers and resolution to take you out of limbo land.. See if they'll 'jet wash' your tubes.. I'm sure that contributed to our success 2 months post laparoscopy..

Will be thinking of you.. If it makes you feel better we're having my parents round for brunch. Should eliminate at least one of tomorrow's update phone calls.. Having spoken to my dad today I'm thinking he's struggling a little with some of the pregnancy concepts.. He suggested a curry supper as 'that helps bring babies along'. Um, not at 6 and a half weeks pregnant it doesn't Dad. Arghh.

[MildredH]

Ps- keep me updated.. I expect at least one anaesthesia fuelled bonkers post!

[Weaselicious]

Hey - had lap this morning and pregnancy was ectopic. I've had my left tube taken out. Feel dreadful. :(

[MildredH]

Oh god, Weasel I'm sorry . That's not what I expected you to say..

If its pain or nausea and vomiting making you feel dreadful make sure you ask for stuff.. I'm sure they'll have prescribed meds in case you need them.

Huge hug. X

[MildredH]

How're you getting on Weasel? X

[Weaselicious]

Hey Mildred thanks for checking in. Am ok, should be going home shortly. The ectopic was really close to the womb which is unusual apparently (can't seem to do much that's normal with this particular pregnancy), they think all is sorted but have to come back in two weeks for another fucking blood test. Sorry but this is all getting on top of me rather.

Just waiting for discharge papers now and want to go home!

Good to hear your dad's grasp of foetal development though... Do let me know how your scan goes xx

[MildredH]

Hi weasel,

Hope you successfully escaped from hospital last night. Must be nice to be back in your own home now..

Did they talk to you at all about trying again? I guess maybe its too early days..

All ok here. Still feeling sick, although over analysing whether I feel less sick that before or whether I'm just getting used to it. Had a family funeral yesterday so had to take off the sea-bands as just too conspicuous so that was a real delight! Only positive was all the plain BEIGE food on the buffet at the wake which is my absolute favourite atm!

24 hours til scan. Don't have a great feeling about it. Tried to prepare DH last night that it may not be what we're hoping for.

Off shopping today. I cannot spend one more day in the house! Having dinner with friends tonight- actually can't describe how excited I am to just do something normal. Feels like life has been suspended for the last 10 days.

Anyway. Enough of my whinging. Hope you are ok. X

[Weaselicious]

Hi - just wanted to say hope all goes well today, am thinking of you :)

[MildredH]

Thanks weasel.. Had scan this morning. Healthy 7mm bean with heartbeat. So relieved. Had convinced myself it would be bad news!

Back to work tomorrow- actually looking forward to it. Cannot spend another day in the house!

How are you? Xxx

[Weaselicious]

Oh I'm so pleased! You must be delighted. Here's to your lovely little bean :) enjoy going back to work, but don't forget your twice daily updates...

Be lovely to hear how you go if you'd like to keep in touch.

I'm ok - taking it v easy. Going to be a while I think before we decide whether we try again (though I am 38 grr so not toooo long), but am thankful to be here tbh, could have been much worse.

Enough of that. Hugs to you, and more bean updates please. Take care and don't work too hard x

[MildredH]

Thanks Weasel. I am massively relieved but I think the euphoria is squished a bit by the nausea. Although happy, bit worried about going back to work with long on calls/ night shifts etc. At the moment a trip to sainsburys is wiping me out and is usually followed by a mid afternoon nap.

Medical staffing ( our HR) said to speak to my consultant about hours etc and whether I would continue to do my on calls but I just feel so uncomfortable and feeble having to say to her- I might be a bit too tired/ queasy.. Pregnancy after all is not an illness! Will see how things play out when I go back. I will have to have a return to work interview so I guess will just try to bring it up there.

I have become a prize whinger lately! Honestly don't know how DH is putting up with it. That and beige food for dinner every night!

Anyway.. obviously shared the news with the parents collective this morning. I was driving DH back to work so he called his Mum first. I then text both parents ( approximately 6 minutes later) to be told that they already knew as they'd called MIL to see if she knew anything. Talk about jungle drums. Argh! Think my lovely mother is going to have to understand that updates will be scaled back now!

Glad you are taking it easy- are your work being quite accommodating? I can't imagine how you are feeling. I know that after my MMC I just wanted to conceive again as soon as humanly possible- probably just trying to replace what I'd lost but when things didn't happen immediately I realised that actually a period of recovery was a good thing and you've definitely been through more than I did.

Roll on two weeks for you to go for the (hopefully) final test. Then hopefully you can begin to feel like it's behind you.

Certainly would like to stay in touch.. xx