I'm losing my grip on reality

[roslily]

I have a history of depression, gp wonders about Bipolar. I am in a really bad place at moment, I have escalated and cam barely function. I can't sleep, but feel constantly wrecked, not eating. Now I can't work things out.

I told dh that I thought childminder wanted to take ds. I think this was quite rational, but he thinks I am begin weird. I feel all jittery, can't keep still. I don't want to leave ds, but need a way out of this pain.

I work full time as a teacher, only just gone back from ML, have had time off before, don't think can have more time off. If I don't work we lose our house.

I just want to be somewhere safe, I don't feel safe but myself. Help

I had my appointment today, and it was ok actually. She used previous notes and didn't make me go through everything again.

Anyway she is going to ask the Psychiatrist to see me, which I find a bit scary, but she said either they could diagnose me, or they could rule out diagnosis and therefore get me the help I need.

that sounds very promising, hope you get to see the psychiatrist quite soon

for diagnosis of bipolar you need two episodes (european) of which one should be mania or hypomania or (US) one single episode of mania or mixed

the NICE guidelines require primary care clinicians to refer any suspected cases to specialist mental health service - that's why people say GPs can't formally diagnose the condition

Glad it went well Rosily, and it's good you're going to see the specialist. Hope you get the help you need.