Is sleeping forever the only way it will end?

[thenewme]

I am really struggling.

I feel like crying all the time. I can't remember the last time I properly smiled or had a good laugh.

I am in a deep hole and have no space or energy to get myself out of it.

Suicide is on my mind a lot. I don't want to die but I just want it all to end.

On ADs but no other support.

I wish I had a Mum.

Will keep you all posted on the e bay front, although think I maybe be stuck with him, and the dog, just as much of a pain in the bum if you ask me.

Kent is near london isn't it? How rubbish am I? What brought you this way then, and where is home?

nosey bugger me hey! this is why I have no friends????

I was working between London and Kent gpong back and forth with jobs. While in London I meet a Kent man and then we ended up moving here together.

Home isn't anywhere to be honest.

That is a little bit sad,but good you got a good fella in your life. My DP is fab, but can be a bit grumpy sometimes - but then he lives with me.
You still working or at home with the family. Have to say I am so glad I returned to work, it really was my saving grace. Feel like me for those 3 days a week, and I hope I make the most of the 4 days with DS, although after today I have been pushed to my limits - christmas shopping and a 2 year old don't mix - what was I thinking.
Anyway how has your day been?

I gave up work when early pregnant and haven't worked since.

Been a good day thanks, wish I had phoned the HV sooner tbh.

Also helps I am not feeling spaced out on new AD's too.

That is good, hope they start doing there job soon. I just take each day as it comes. Glad the HV was a help, mine were pants. I am sure she was about 12 and could write all she knew about children on a match box!

I have had tonnes of HV's and about 2 were any good.