I’m posting on here because it’s anonymous. I feel like I can’t give much more. Everyday for a long time has been a struggle & the hardest part is pretending that it’s not. I can’t believe how much I hate myself and how I feel like such a burden to everyone around me. I’m such a shit person to be around, I’m grumpy, moan, find fault in everything and struggle to see the good in anyone. I’m a mum and a partner but I feel like everyone would be so much better off without me. I make everyone miserable. I’ve battled so long just trying to find happiness in things and to everyone else I look ungrateful and such a moan - I know better than anyone that I have got SO much to be grateful for but every single ounce of happiness in me is gone. I don’t know who I am anymore. I’m lost. I’m 32 and I should be so much happier for the life I have but it’s becoming a weekly thing now where I think about how much better everyone would be with me. I hate myself, I hate my job, I hate feeling so fucking down and angry every single day! I just have no idea how to pull myself out of this!!!